angry depression?

[aDepressionUnicorn]

does anyone else get very angry when they are at their bottom? i find that when i feel the worst , the people closest to me ‘see’ my anger… not my internal pain… why is this? even my hubby is ‘ afraid’ of me because they see anger… i just don’t understand it… they avoid me and that just spiral me into deeper isolation and despair..

[russel0]

It sounds really tough to feel that way. It's common for anger to mask deeper pain, and it's hard when loved ones don't see what you're really going through. You're not alone in this.

[Lovestoeat4me]

Good morning beautiful one. Thank you for your honesty. This is sooo me. My husband is "afraid" of me as well. Anger is most usually my first response. And, full disclosure; every now and then it feels good to release it. Then afterwards I feel bad about my behavior but as much as I wish that I could change it; I feel absolutely powerless against it. Even while it's happening a part of me or as my husband puts it; 1 of my personalities are screaming STOP, STOP, but I can't! It just goes on and on until the beast is satisfied. I don't want to be this way. No one wants to be the most hated person in the room. I often feel like people hate to see me coming. That hurts and this adds to my depression. I just don't know what to do.

[jnelson66]

my life is mental illness advocacy. I started saying it now as a mental illness activist because I share the exact same emotion as you. Anger. I applaud you because I rarely see different takes and your title is a different take and it is oh so very real.

I too was at the depths of hell you are in and I too was very angry. My anger manifested as extreme irritability to those around me. I was angry I couldn’t find relief. I was angry I was judged as weak by society for a disease I didn’t ask for. I was angry at being treated differently by family members I was angry at the abysmal mental health care system in what is supposed to be the best country in the world

Search Pulverize the Stigma and you will find more info on my two cents to all of the absurdity of the world we live in. My anger has now progressed into full on anger towards the vast majority of society for making the suffering worse for every single person in this community here.

I would post the link but I don’t want to get yelled at by the message board police in this community 😊

[Catt02]

I know some ppl do, for whatever reason I don't. Wait, I think that's when I get so self destructive. I feel sick about getting angry, could express it properly. After growing with my brother, who violent temper rid me ever displaying such ugliness. I suppose it leaves me defenseless. I envy ppl who can get angry "as needed" and stand up for themselves. Instead I ruined lot of things in life that could have been great. F_ me.