I want to get better and accept myself instead of denying

[TryingMyBest1]

Ever since 2020 I’ve changed drastically all the things I’m feeling are undiagnosed but I’m positive I have them (anxiety, depression, OCD, etc) I hate to admit this but at a time I was denying my mental health and what I was feeling and I shouldn’t have and that resulted in me hurting myself(mentally) and hurting someone else due to a misunderstanding of my actions and I’ve been feeling very remorseful and very hard on myself because the way I acted is not the way I act at all and I didn’t realize my mental health and lack of getting help and accepting it was hurting me and someone else so now. Someone please reply I feel like a bad person and if I am please tell me that I’m really reflecting right now since I have no funds for a therapist

[gajh]

If you really are "TryingMyBest", then you are doing all you can do. Please don't beat yourself up over something in the past. It is over and done with. What matters is that you are trying to do better in the present. Try to have some self compassion. I know that is way easier said than done, but it is a process. Maybe you could take one step.

[PurpleOstrich19]

You are only human. Please don’t beat yourself up over the things you can no longer change. As someone who has also hurt others when I wasn’t in the best of mental positions the only thing you can do is ask for forgiveness and move forward. It doesn’t necessarily mean that things will change in the situation but as long as your working on yourself and taking it one day at a time (nothing happens overnight) that’s the best you can do. No one is perfect by any means and you will get through this.

[Mamabear49_]

this is a late response

I hope you are doing better, realizing you have things to work on is the first step, that’s very courageous of you, self doubt is common with people who deal with depression

If I can offer some advice- I’ve dealt with depression and anxiety since I was a child, I’m in my 50’s now. There is hope!!☀️

I have a plan to treat my illness, it is not curable but treatable. There is no magic bullet, you have to walk in it each day, but for me/ these things help

Daily sunshine, walk/exercise of some kind, purpose, support person/group, spiritual life, meds, good sleep, mindfulness, journaling, and hobbies

When something is out of whack/ it usually means I am neglecting something and I need to rebalance my life and priorities

The past is gone, it is history but not your destiny!

You can live differently and you are worth it 🌸