waves of sadness

[Amiwrong]

does anyone else here get sudden waves of sadness. Like there doesn’t seem to be a trigger or anything , but almost like out of the blue I feel an invisible blanket flooding me with sadness and despair. I mean I feel sad all day every day for the most part, but these experiences are even more so.

[Raggedy-Ann]

I understand. It happens to me too, out of nowhere. I will be doing something random like folding laundry and it hits, I am thinking "oh no" I feel a little sick and want to cry. I spend time trying to sleep hoping I feel better. It is strange like a haunting.

[Amiwrong in reply to Raggedy-Ann]

Sometimes if my day is going ok and this happens it can make my mood do a complete change. I hate it but I never hear people talk about it.

[Donnie_Brasco_9]

All the time. You are not alone.

[Amiwrong]

thank you for letting me knew it has to be somewhat common

[Rufus07 in reply to Amiwrong]

Everyday!!

[Scarlett28]

Absolutely yes. Overwhelming feeling of dread and fear that shakes apart the small amount of security I feel. I’m sorry you feel this too.

[Amiwrong]

I’m sorry for everyone. It’s such a strange feeling. This flush of dread I should pay more attention to. I wonder if it happens more when I’m doing ok. Like if I’m having a decent day and then the depression steps in and says “oh no you don’t” lol In all seriousness though it’s a horrible feeling.

[Catt02]

Yes, I do. I feel a profound sense of grief, go on these crying jags that last for hours. Doesn't take much, I've got a huge load of grief over certain things but uncertain things as well. I don't know. Can be debilitating.

[Amiwrong in reply to Catt02]

Thank you for sharing. I’m glad that I’m not the only one, but of course not glad that other people are enduring this experience

[DAR81]

Yes every day. Along with my anxiety, CPTSD and MDD, I will sometimes detach from reality and disassociate as well. I was diagnosed with BPD (borderline personality disorder) too.

I suspect I have ADD as well.

I’m such a mess

It’s just so overwhelming.

I don’t know if I am coming or going.

I am lost and don’t know where I belong. I isolate and feel invisible and feel rejected.

I have dealt with much loss and trauma in my life.

I’ve made some poor decisions especially regarding the relationships I was in. There was so much domestic abuse. I tolerated it until it broke me. My self esteem was always poor, but it’s practically non existent now.

My overall trust is non existent for the most part

I don’t have much hope for my future. I am just floating and treading water now.

I am so stuck.

Life has largely been a torturous journey. I rarely find any joy in any of it.

[Amiwrong]

I really wanted to find the words of support or wisdom but I don’t know what to respond. I have realized that rather than thinking about all the things I have (which equates to all the things that are wrong, in my mind) I think it’s helpful to see them all as one. All my diagnosis overlap and one thing causes or impacts another. I mean it doesn’t take away from feeling badly but it makes me feel like I don’t have this big long list of things that are problematic with me.

No joy in life is from the depression no doubt, but I do often wonder if I naturally lack those feel good chemicals that others have.

We should try and not be so hard on ourselves and not take life or ourselves so seriously. 😒 I don’t know, I think what we need is often individual and maybe that’s why it’s so hard to help one another with answers.