why??

[BellaLatte]

well…. I have asked myself that question for years….. I am tired of feeling this way.

I have had depression, anxiety, PTSD and delayed grief for too long…since I was 8.

Why me? Why was I not loved by my mother? Why was I left to fight this battle alone?

Why do I feel this way and why can’t I just stop it?

I will never know all the whys.

just know you are not alone.

[Existing]

Hi Bella, I hurt for you, saying that about your mom, and being abandoned.. my mom was my best friend.. I can't imagine how that must feel, that is such a deep primitive connection, it would have crushed me. I'm sooo sorry for having that hole in your heart all these years❤

[Dolphin14]

BellaLatte

I'm so sorry for all the pain you have.

Please know you are not alone either. There are many on HU that have gone through this same thing.

Are you in therapy? If you have a good therapist you may be able to find some of the answers to your questions.

🐬

[Hidden]

hi Bella, most of my childhood abuse came from my mother. I can’t say what she called me as a young child…too offensive. Very hard to have a mother who doesn’t love you. She passed away 5 years ago but I had forgiven her by then and we were just developing a new relationship and she died suddenly. It’s hard growing up with parents who don’t love you and my sisters are not doing well at all. My heart goes out to you, hope today is better for you

[195Dbv56]

Hi Bella, I'm so sorry to hear that you are so afflicted. Life sure isn't fair a lot of times. I recently came across a book that I think you might find helpful: Warrior by Dr. Shauna Springer. You can get it on Amazon. Wishing you the very best😊