MDD when will I get better?

[Plausiblestart]

I just got a kitty to help, hopefully, curb my loneliness. Constant depression. I do not understand why others want to keep people alive more than the person wants to be alive. Divorced after 33 years in abusive marriage. I worked hard to be the best wife, he a narcissist cop. He drained all of savings, took my inheritance. I have children and grands, but I cannot find joy. I am a believer of a power greater than myself, but I wallow in self- pity and depression. Everything I worked for taken. Gone after 60 years. I had never been in debt. Paid cash or did without. Ex wanted me to live in poverty so planned for about 6 year's to leave me. How do I heal? I have debt. He left me an overwhelming amount of debt.

[Sunrisetabby]

That is wonderful about your kitty and grandkids. I enjoy watching my cat sit for hours by a mouse hole waiting to pounce. Have you spoken to a lawyer, actually I'd recommend speaking to three lawyers - similar to therapists, having a good fit in addition to a skilled advocate is helpful, especially as most attorneys will give you a free initial consult. Even though I don't know any details, it sounds like your husband may legally owe you a very significant amount of money. Getting angry and focused helps.

[Mamabear49_]

first of all- you are worthy, brave, and need healing

Don’t be so hard on yourself- after 30 years with someone- it’s not gonna heal quickly

If you can- find a support group at a church- Divorce Care (at my church)

Those people are going through the same thing you are and need support/friend/ shoulder to cry on as well

Now is the time in your life to concentrate on you- YOUR likes, dislikes, goals, dreams

You can do this without him- your ex- but you can’t do it without God- he sees you, loves you, and you are his daughter and deserve the very best.

Prayers are with you , keep pressing forward, and lean into the pain(uncomfortableness)

You have to walk through it to get to the other side- it’s a journey- and perhaps you will be a mentor to someone else who needs support

[Cookie2217]

I'm so sorry that you were left the way that you were by your ex-husband. I suffer from depression myself and wondering when it's all going to come to an end for me as well. This most recent battle depression has lasted 3 years even before the pandemic and has been the hardest of my life. I find joy in nothing and find it extremely hard to get out of bed in the morning to go to work. The past year has brought me to my knees I lost my job which in turn made me lose my condo and now my husband and I and our cat are living in my sister's basement. I have to say that this is the lowest point I've been in my life and the only place I have left to go is up because I can't think any lower then I already have at this point. I do have a job but I was promised full time hours and I'm only working part-time I have an interview tomorrow via Zoom at 2:00 p.m. which I am hoping goes well. My husband and I hope to be able to save enough money to move to Florida by the summertime hopefully all goes well with that plan. Wishing you find comfort in knowing that somebody understands your depression and I'm here if you want to talk.