Struggling with MDD for decades

[Toddzen]

Hi,This disease is horrible. I have done most treatments available including Ketamine and TMS and continue to have symptoms everyday. I am envious of my siblings who are living a better life than me. They give me no emotional support. I go to support groups which are helpful. But acceptimg the pain I feel everyday is very hard.

[LilyAnnepuppy]

welcome to the group. Yes, MDD sucks. It would be nice to feel some joy.

[OT4Kids]

I have also done TMS and IV ketamine and I see a therapist and psychiatrist but nothing has helped me. I hope you will feel better soon!

[Toddzen in reply to OT4Kids]

Thanks. I find going to LiveWell peer support groups helpful. The groups are free.

[Sylvain- in reply to Toddzen]

Hi Toddzen,

Like @dolphin14, I'll be curious to learn more about LiveWell. Is it online or in person? Visio maybe? Is there a moderator or trained professional during the sessions?

[Dolphin14]

Toddzen

I'm so sorry MDD has been such a struggle for you. You are doing so much to get well.

I would like to hear more about the LiveWell support groups if you have time and would like to share. Are these on line support groups? Is there a moderator present during the sessions? I'm curious about things like that.

Wishing you the best as you continue your healing journey. It is hard to watch the world go on " normally" while we are searching for solutions

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[Toddzen in reply to Dolphin14]

LiveWell is online groups with Peer Moderators. The groups are discussions for coping with Depression.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Toddzen]

Thank you. It's good to know this is out there.

[Sylvain-]

"I am envious of my siblings who are living a better life than me."

For me, this is the hardest thing to deal with. The feeling everyone has a better, more rewarding life while yours sucks. Why do they deserve success and hapiness while you don't?

It both worsens the depression symptoms and makes me feel guilty for being envious or not having been smart enough to seize the right opportunities in my life.

[Bezel75]

It can be relentless, the pain. I haven’t found a support group so I am here. It helps that others here understand. It sounds like you are drug resistant. Keep trying to find something that will help. That’s all we can do is to take it one day at a time. And find friends here who we can be real with.

[Toddzen in reply to Bezel75]

I go to LiveWell and NAMI peer support groups. These groups have saved my life. Major Depressive Disorder is a horrible illness. I had no idea when I was younger that my illness would progress. I thought the meds would work. They don't. But getting off them is impossible.

[Bezel75]

Are the meetings online or in person?

[Toddzen in reply to Bezel75]

They are online. Just Google LiveWell and NAMI. LiveWell is based in Philadelphia. But people from all over the US attend the groups.

[Bezel75]

Thenk you!!! I am going to try one.