Having trouble with my MDD at times

[PurpleRose74]

I have MDD ever since my teenage years, but wasn’t diagnosed with MDD til 2021, I was on medication but in June 2021 I took myself off of the medication. Now two years later my MDD hasn’t gotten so bad that I was hospitalized for 5 days cos I was having suicidal thoughts but didn’t act on them. So I’m back on my medication but some days are better than others. I’m looking for support groups or people that’s going through the same thing as me.

[downinthecrud]

Hi PurpleRose. I think you’ll find many people here who feel similar to you. Recovery from mdd can be really difficult and it doesn’t go in a straight line. In the past year and a half I’ve been up and down. Actually down and more down. Sometimes we just have to make it day by day, hour by hour, or minute by minute. And really try hard to not criticize ourselves when we’re going through it. I think you did the right thing getting back on your meds. If you’d ever like to chat I’m here.

[PurpleRose74 in reply to downinthecrud]

thank you for your reply, I’m trying day by day but some days are harder than others but I thank God every day I wake up cos it’s a new day

[MaudeNY in reply to PurpleRose74]

You’ve found the right place to come and vent. Most of us can all relate to what you’re going through because we are there too.

[jramire5]

Hi PurpleRose,

I am also looking for support for my MDD and GAD ; I recently finished a 5-week partial hospitalization program for depression and anxiety ( 1 month ago) and one thing that helped tremendously was connecting with like minded individuals. I have been battling with my mental health since I left a very fanatic church experience in 2011 (I was 22).

Dealing with depression and anxiety is hard and it’s even harder when you have people in your life who don’t understand, who don’t want to understand, etc. I usually feel lonely at times because for years I was surrounded by people who invalidated my experience. I’m slowly learning to create friendships with those who are understanding, empathetic, and kind. I’m also here if you need to talk.

[PurpleRose74 in reply to jramire5]

Thank you for your reply, yes it is hard to be around someone who doesn’t know what or how your feeling or going through, and some people act like they really don’t care or want to learn about what is happening or going on. Most of those people are my family members especially my daughter, I was hospitalized for five days cos I had suicidal thoughts and all she said was I hope everything works out for you, but that’s ok cos if my family wants to turn their back on that’s on them, because they only want me around if I can do or give them something.

[MananaBanana in reply to PurpleRose74]

I don’t think your daughter knew what to say and I think she was afraid of saying the wrong thing

[PurpleRose74 in reply to jramire5]

I absolutely know the feeling about people not understanding what your going through, my whole family thinks that I’m doing this for attention. So I don’t even try to talk to them anymore. Which I’ve always been the black sheep of the family anyway. But I can say this for the last two weeks I’ve been the happiest I’ve been in a long time. Some days are harder than others. I’ve been praying morning and night. I’ve also started doing meditation so that seems to be helping. So anytime you need a friend I’m here.

[kippy2]

Hello

I’m sorry you have been struggling for so long, I am feeling the same as you. I came off the meds a few weeks ago but couldn’t cope. So here I am back on them day 7, they are not kicking in yet. I would like to keep in touch with you and support each other

Best wishes Tania

[PurpleRose74]

thanks for the reply, yes I would like to keep in touch, I need all the support I can get.