No one wants to be around me. My depression is a huge turn off. I even had a cousin scream at me " No one wants to hear this." Im dangerously depressed.Everything Ive tried to do to help myself has backfired on me.
Every day cycle the same,
Worry, rumination , guilt, anger.
My health has deteriorated and my ability to think has gone out the window.
I’m so sorry you are getting the message that you are too much. I totally understand. I have no one. I came on here to ask how you all keep going 🤷♀️ I understand and I’m sorry people can’t be more compassionate. I truly don’t think anyone understands how debilitating MDD is. I think most people think we have a choice every day. I know I try to make a choice, use skills, bring down the intensity but nothing works for me anymore. I hear just to see if there is some comfort in knowing I’m not alone. I hope you can take something from knowing there’s some of us that understand what you’re going through 🙏 I wish this on no one and I feel so hopeless that I can’t help myself or anyone else.
Im 64 and the last 6 years have been wasted. I really hope I go before I reach 70.
I'm sorry you feel that way. I get it. I wish I could help anyone see their worth, but I'm a failure at that too.
I believe all life is precious! I know I'm just a random guy saying this but you matter. Everyone here matters. The understanding and compassion I see from people I've talked to on here shows me they are good souls just damaged with different things they have been through,hurt or just disorders that just unfortunately they got over time. I'm sorry your struggling with alot. But I hope you stay strong and things will get better. I hope the best for you. I may not help or I may even a little but I just want you and everyone to know you matter. I struggle with me feeling like I don't matter alot at times, but I try my best to bounce back and not let anxiety control me and trust me it takes everything. I have my days where I just fall really really hard but slowly but surely I try to rise back up and not let my overthinking win. Again it takes everything but I'm hoping it will matter in the long run. I hope all the best! 🙏
I hope you feel better, I have no friends or family and am very alone as well , I go for a walk everyday either outside at a park or to different stores just to be around people it helps to watch people and to just be able to say hi to a cashier , makes me feel a little better so I hope maybe something like that might help you too
My area high crime walking around not option. I take train upstate to hang out.
I see, well it is good to be able to take a train ride and be able to people watch that way. I don't know if you have United way 211 where you are but they have what's called warm lines you can call just to be able to talk to someone if needed, can use it everyday for a 20 minute conversation with a peer person not a therapist and you can talk about anything. I wish you the best and I hope this may help 🙏
Disclosing MDD
I am new here
severely depressed can’t get out
Trying to make friends 
