Last week both my partner and I got a bike....I have steadily put on more and more weight both with steroids and a less busy and 'on the go' lifestyle. I used to be on the go from dusk till damn every single day and loved it, even then when I was a lot fitter and a lot healthier I still struggled with my weight.
I have now got to my heaviest EVER.......over 17 stone ffs!!!!!!! and it kills me every day. My confidence is in my boots, nothing fits me anymore, I feel and look like a hippo.And to top all that I am meant to be getting married this year, maybe in 5 months time.
I find it very hard to walk anywhere due to chronic pain and also, even though I know walking is good excercise for my weight, it is also my weight that makes it so damned hard to do.
SO, going back to the bikes I thought that I may be able to cycle once a day or maybe two or three times a week. So on Friday the sun was shining and it was a beautiful day so my guy and I went for a nice cycle ride, nothing too strenuous for me, just a good ride that took about 50 minutes. I came back exhilerated. I have not felt that good, that happy and that excited that I could actually do something positive for a very, very long time.
So Sunday morning off we went again, happy again as the previous days ride had not done any damage and had still left me feeling happy, I had almost forgotten how good it feels.
Enjoed every minute of my weekend. Then Sunday night it came to putting my Dad to bed. Sadly his legs buckled and he was unable to take his own weight so he collapsed.
Luckily Mike was there (phew) but between us we had to lift a 6 foot tall man who was a dead weight up off the floor and onto the bed.
And now......guess what?
I am unable to move!!!! I have the most dreadful, unbearable pain in my middle back all the way down to my ankle. The only thing I can do to be comfortable is to sit with my feet up in a recliner with a pack of frozen peas in the small of my back.
I am sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo pissed off that after finding something that I can do and thoroughly enjoy, I now cant do it.
I just hope and pray that this will all pass and I can get back on my bike, sooner rather than later.
Thaks for reading this guys as it is great to know that there are people who do actually care outside my own four walls xxxxxxxxxxxx