I have made a few mistakes the last few months, choosing love or friends and lost both! But like most of us here I've paid triple cos my lupus is in overdrive!! I have really bad bladder problems, I had a hip replacement in 09 and either that's going wrong or all my muscles and ligaments need put back, there could be a third!! That I've damaged my back! Which also all comes down to my left hip needs replacing! My SLE lupus mean I get infections easily so this is not straight forward with a 10 year old and no friends and the man who promised the earth gone!! I always have headaches I always have mouth abscess and I rarly eat but am a big girl!! I think I've reach rock bottom!!!