Hi saw a different guy today and I told him everything, he was concerned but not convinced its my mixed connective tissue disorder (Still no bloody diagnosis) causing these problems. Due to my insane teenage years of self harm, violent outbursts, drug abuse and mental issues they are convinced I'm mental. I know that this is not me! I was a stupid messed up kid 5 years ago and a short space of time it may be to them its not for me. I left home at 16 got my own home and sorted my head out so I know something is wrong. Other than this medical crap I'm in bliss and I'm a very stable and happy person. Iv not been that Horrible person in years and nothing could make me go back, not autoimmune disorder or anything else. I'm being so honest because its just How I am, open book my lungs and Heart are all clear too btw so no worries there. I'll do the assesment then prove its not me. He assured me they will scan me before they dump me in therapy so il prove I'm not mental soon hopefully. It's a shame I don't have all pd you to back me up that I'm normally very happy and collected. Thank you all for checking I'm ok and I hope those of you struggling with the Same problem get someone to listen to you. Massive loubie hugs and loves to all my friends on here and anyone else Who may need a hug too.
Xxxx loubie Xxxxx