My brain is playing such bad tricks on me. I feel like I'm losing Who I am! Why am I so angry? Why am I hearing things? Why am I losing my temper? I have a constant fever, my head feels crushed and full of bad thoughts, not that I would EVER act on them. Telling me to walk into the road with my son making me want to smash the kitchen up because I burnt tea or wanting to throw my cup at my partner because there's too much milk in my tea! It's insane! I'm confused constantly and I Never want company anymore but I hate being alone. I can't eat or Sleep. BEing sick is terrifying me since I used to have an eating disorder and I WILL NOT go down that dark path again. WHen I had my son I visualized pushing him in the road but I Thought it was post natal depression and it pased eventually but the last 6 months its escalated to the point I'm shaking myself and I feel like a failure as a mum and partner can someone Tell me What this is and How to make it stop!!!!