There is somebody out there (I know) who will understand how it feels to stare at yourself in the bathroom mirror and see someone looking back at you that you don't even recognise.
I am feeling very down at the moment because I have lost even more hair, my eyebrows have gone completely and every morning after my shower I spend an extra 5 mins or more in the bathroom in tears so knowbody knows I am upset. Then I throw the hair volumiser across the bathroom floor or against the wall and start to get ready for the day. I pick it up, try not to look at myself, put it back on and hide my image from my self and feel better again. When I do eventually catch sight of myself I want to rip it back off again but dead what lies beneath it more.
My face has blotches of red and I feel a real freak.
I have written this because there isn't a soul I know who can understand how I feel and even if there isn't anyone out there who does, then I have got it out of my system for the night by writing to you all You don't know me so I feel safe telling you how I feel.
I am going through a bad phase at present after having a bit of a flare and I am a bit fed up with it all.
I usually try not to let it get at me but I am losing the battle at the moment.
I hate Lupus and wonder how on earth I aquired it.
I know there are many of you who are much worse off than I am and I am sorry for being so self indulgent.
I so wish you all well and thank you for taking the time to read my dreary blog!
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