I've often felt low over the years but the past few days have been awful. Think it's a combination of hormones and steroids. I actually started planning how I would end my life. Just can't face the future. What stops me is when I look at my kids it breaks my heart that they would be without a mum and I couldn't do that to them, but then there's no way out of this mess. Don't feel like I've got the resources in me to keep on fighting the depression and keep putting on my brave face. We haven't been able to plan a holiday this year as I'm too ill.. and I've got nothing to look forward to but more pain and bone crushing fatigue. I can't tell my husband how I'm feeling as I feel such a burden to him already. I feel I'm holding my family back from having fun and adventures and they'd be better off without me. Hoping that the steroids will help me get my life back, impatient for them to work now, all I'm getting is horrible side effects. I have one good day every now and then and I start hoping that I have turned the corner and I'll be starting to get better but the next day I'm back in bed and all my hopes are dashed to pieces. I've taken antidepressants before may be I need to speak to my GP. Sorry to post such doom and gloom but I could do with some support.