I've been off work since last Oct, with awful joint pain, abnormal bloods. Saw consultant rheumatologist end of October. She took loads of bloods arranged ultra sound scan of my hands and MRI. Meant to see her in Feb, but only just seen her end of March!! In the mean time- condition worsened. Can't move hands very well, thumbs keep locking. Got terrible urticaria rash all over my body. Anyway she has now confirmed rheumatic disease- lupus, and connective tissue plus fibromyalgia. She has prescribed steroids and azathioprine. I'm getting married in two months and I'm so worried the steroids will make me fat. I know I must sound pathetic, but my body image is so bad at moment as it is. This disease had taken over my life!! I've just started the immunosuppressants and not taken steroids as yet. Thoughts please. I'm getting a few side effects from azathioprine- nausea, tummy upset. I'm a nurse and cannot work at mo as can't use my hands. Very low at mo, but trying to stay positive xx ps I'm new on here!!