Hi everyone. I posted a question on here not long ago and recieved some great feedback so I thought i'd turn to this site again. My mum has her ups and downs but the past week has been really down. I can tell when shes not well as her mood changes and you can feel it in the atmosphere.
Anyways, I came home at five last night and had chips from the shop waiting for me. So I noticed she hadn't cooked which she doesn't like to do and i realised something was up. I ate at the table with her trying to make polite conversation. I offered to wash up and run her a bath to help out. I did the washing up etc. The evening went on and as i was the only member of the family at home with her, i felt as though i was walking on egg shells.
My sister came home (late) and went straight upstairs. I went and had a shower and came downstairs to be comfronted by my mum yelling "OHHH you tidied your room already did you?!! that was fast!". Being sarcastic and wanting to start an argument I assumed. I just sat on the sofa and tried to not react. I told her I will do my room when i'd like too. To be honest i'd had a **** day. Working really hard at work full time and i just wanted to come home and relax. She completely lost it.
She went bright red in the face, biting her lip like she does. Stomping around the kitchen and slamming pieces of furniture around. She was banging things so loud it was making me jump.
She started yelling some really horrible things to me, Calling me a lazy cow and to get out of her house. I replied that i would if i could afford it! She told me I could afford it if i stopped spending money on clothes that don't fit.
I've recently put on weight and i know that i have. It also really really gets to me that i'm no longer a size 8. She seems to bring it up every time we argue and it HURTS. I started crying and went to bed.
I really don't know what to do. This morning she was being particularly nice to me but i still just felt angry? I know that she's ill and she cant help it but i probably try the hardest with her out of my dad and sister. It doesnt seem fair that i seem to brunt all of the shouting when she gets mad.
I guess I just wanted to get this off my chest and speak to someone about it.