Hi Fellow Lupies
I am and a a total loss and so frustrated with everything having done all that my G.P. and Consultant have suggested :-[
I was diagnosed with Lupus , Sjogrens, Raynauds and lots of the associated problems that goes with these awful things in 1999. I am on the usual concoction of meds Hydroxy, Prednisolone,Amitriptyline, Statin ,Salagen,Aspirin,Co Codamol , Ibubrufen to name a few. For many years i have also suffered with lower back pain that has been constant and at times horrendous to the point i struggle to walk ,sit ,or even just move. I was finally diagnosed with Spondylolisthesis, degenerative wear and tear in my spine area L5 in 2014. I was advised by both my consultant and G.P. to lose weight and undergo Physiotherapy. Well long story short I joined Slimming World and lost 2 stone! I totally recommend Slimming World i lost the weight easily and sensibly and yet could eat and never be hungry ! I have been doing my physio exercises faithfully & lost the weight . So why having done all that i can to help myself why do I feel so much worse ??! The constant aching and stiffness throughout my body has increased & my back pain is considerably worse.It is lovely to be able to wear fitted clothes in sizes 12/14 rather than hiding behind baggy jumpers etc. The compliments are lovely to, but i feel worse than i did when i was considerably heavier. It is bad enough as us Lupies know, when people say you look so well you don't look ill. Now it's" oh you look so slim and well, you must feel fantastic having lost weight & it must help the Lupus !!!!" I When inside I feel so ill and hurt all over!!Trying to explain makes me sound like a whinger so i just smile and say thank you when all i want is for the aches pains and problems to stop. I work part time but am struggling to walk, bend, or just plain move with this back & joint pain let alone work . But being self employed no work, no money . Painkillers take the edge off the flu like symptoms of the lupus and Sjogren's but doesn't touch the back pain. I'm not feeling sorry for myself far from it. I am just frustrated and disappointed that by trying to help myself and do what i was told I simply have made the situation worse. Sorry for the rant x But people who do not struggle with this awful disease do not understand and i just needed to talk to people who do.Im so grateful to be a member of the Lupus Health Unlocked community and to be able to talk to people who do really understand. Onwards & Upwards the wolf shall not win......now where did i hide that chocolate from myself a few months ago ;-} i need a little treat!!! Love & Light to you all xxx