saw my rumotologist on Wednesday just gone, looking like I do have lupus but wants to do scans an bloods to make it 100% certain.. I'm not fussed about having the lupus as its a huge relief as been waiting to be diagnosed since October 2015, but just makes me feel bad for my boyfriend having to now take on this illness with me an watch me struggle in pain, an maybe me not being able to give him everything he wants in life.. E.g kids.... As I also have an underactive thyroid.. Also may have diabeties an arthritis!! So quite a lot he has to listen to me moan about..
He always tells me not to worry about what I can an can't give him but we're both so young! Me (21) him (25) but I do want a child an would like to start a family when I turn 24/25 but then what about if that's too late? His no where near ready for a child in the next year so I'm not the sort of person to talk someone into something that drastic which wouldn't be right anyway with the money/health situation where in at the mo.
I have gone back to work doing 4 hours a day (20 hours a week) from doing 44 hours a week... I though 4 hours would be fine, but it's literally killing me I'm struggling just to do normal work stretching over to answer the phone, walking around and lifting piles of paper work..
I don't physically want to give up work as what else have I got to live for.. I'm wondering once I am fully diagnosed is there any Benifits I can actually claim to help me out more as extremely struggling with money because of the illness an killing my body off for working even though it's only 4 hours..
Any advice would be great on Benifits an the boyfriend situation..
Thank you! X