Well guys I decided I just couldn't do it, I didn't start my new job
I don't know whether I did the right thing or not, I do feel really sad I know that.
I was just too tired, I am not coping with this tiredness at the moment.
We are desperate for the money though aswell which doesn't help anything! I was thinking of applying for ESA just to help me get by. I'm scared though, I know they will probably say no and I don't even feel like I have the energy to apply! I have looked on the website and there is a phone number to ring but the thought of picking up the phone makes me want to burs into tears