I'm fed up with friends and acquaintances taking one glance at me and coming out with the phrase "You look well, how are you feeling?" So I bite my tongue and say "Fine thank you" when I've just come out of the loo being sick, feet hurt like hell and seem to belong to someone else, can't quite see in focus, neck won't operate beyond fifteen degree turn in either direction, hands hurt like hell and I still feel sick!!
So I smile sweetly, acknowledge their concern and hold the anger inside that they cannot see what I feel. I know even at the time that I am being unjust in my feelings. That knowledge doesn't help one little bit!! I feel angry and lonely, the only release I have is to vent my feelings here, so thank you for reading this, hope you don't feel the same and that you have family and friend support so that you don't feel as lonely as me.