this weather is treating me badly. i cant go outside without getting my fingers painful and blue. my entire body is buried in pain, exhaustion and fatigue. had serious nose bleeding 2 days ago. my fingers are so sore that when it mistakenly scratch each other i send fire to my head. if i cut my nails i am unable to grip any thing. it is very frustrating that the vital parts of my body (hand and feet) are so sore. I cant remember when last i had a pain free day. i have a therapist that is helping to overcome acute pain. she is good but my pain cant be controled. I drow myself with pain killers ( 8 a day sometimes i take more if my mum is not there) . i get out of breath now when i just take a couple of steps, nause and low appetite cant even stand my favourite food. I fear for the worse, I need my health oh! God help me please.
sorry all that am moaning badly but this is the only place i open up without being judged. I am even tire of people having pity for me, i detest visitors am confinded to my house. I cant even go to the cinema, I cant be outside for more than 3hrs. what a life. my dr suggestion i have an iloprost infusion to help me through winter, but i refused it cos it is more of a killer, it is an argonizing treatment. Please just pray for me as i also pray for u all. i am so sad and depressed.