I'm just posting this to see if anyone has any tips. I started a new job yday after three months off having been made redundant. I actually left my last job on an exit package rather than official redundancy, so I got a bit more money than normal redundancy which meant I could afford to take time off. Having had health problems last year I wanted to take time off to think about what to do next.
Anyway, at my last job, all my colleagues knew id been ill, we could work flexi time etc so sometimes I could leave at 3.30pm and this really helped me. However, I started my new job yday, and it's 9 to 5.30 most days, and I'm already finding the work quite heavy going. They don't know I have lupus, to be honest they've just thrown me straight into work and I hate telling people about it anyway.
I just for some reason felt really emotional yday... I was quite looking forward to my first day, but by the end I just felt exhausted! I feel pathetic saying that as it's just a normal 9 to 5.30 job. But I already feel shattered! I'm not sleeping right (hence this early morning message) and last night when I got in I just about had the energy to have a bath and make dinner (I didn't even clear up after dinner) and at 9pm I crawled into bed. I don't really know why I'm feeling sad... Maybe I just feel like all my time will be focussed on work and for a job that's not even interesting! (I know, that's life).
Also, it's my birthday on Monday. I've arranged a meal in Birmingham (an hour from where I live) this Saturday. But I really don't want to go. And it upsets me because I don't know why I don't want to. Being this tired all the time takes the enjoyment out of things but I don't want to say that to people as I feel like a drama queen. I actually just feel like staying in by myself but is this a sign I could be heading into some kind of depression. I know it's not normal to feel like this? Or is it?
If anyone has any tips on whether what I'm feeling is normal or what I should do id be very grateful!
In the meantime I'll try and go back to sleep