Lonely for no reason

[Woodstock93]

I'm really nervous about posting because I've never done something like this. I've always had anxiety and it was always looked down upon. Until I spoke to some of my closest friend and I realised I'm not alone however I still feel lonely. I was in a relationship where I was always manipulated and never realised. I made the mistake of thinking us being engaged was going to make things better because we were together for 6 years and then I bought a house he was supposed to share with me. We moved in together and 2 weeks later I found out he was speaking to 6 other females. I never felt so down, is it me? Am I just that bad to be with? I acted like I was strong and my friends and family always commended me on being so strong for leaving him. And I agree I was strong for leaving him because not everyone can but I still feel so weak that I have a problem. I was angry and annoyed at him a lot because I didn't have what I craved. Love and attention. I have now found the love and attention, purity and pure love in someone. But why do I still have anxiety? Everyday I wake up, anxious. I'm jumpy from even a sound, I can't even drive my car without thinking something is going to happen. I'm anxious thinking my post is so long people will just think, shut up you're an idiot. I dont know what to do anymore 😔

[worrymagic2013]

Hi nobody will thnk you're stupid here. We all have anxiety or aspects of it and everyone is very supportive.

Sounds like you're having a tough time and so go easy on yourself.

Have a look at some of the NHS guides about anxiety and if you feel like it's getting out of control, talk to your doctor (it will be by phone at the moment). There is help available and even therapy though again this will be by phone or video.

Anxiety doesn't just go away because external things are sorted - home, kids, love life or whatever. It's a mental health issue, but it can be treated.

[SuZQ154]

I agree with the other poster! Please be easy on yourself! You are very brave to be posting and we are so glad you are here! How are things going now? It sounds like you are in a good relationship...is that going well?