I could cry. Here I am at 1:30am in the aftershocks of yet another panic/anxiety attack - that makes 3 in the last week. I honestly thought I had finally got a handle on this (maybe having just a single mildish attack every 4-6 weeks). It's always the same, never happens when I'm awake, but hits me 1-2 hours after I fall asleep. Obviously there is something subconscious going on there, but I have no clue what. I really try to keep on top of my workload, take enough time for myself, and all the other things my relaxation therapist taught me. I just don't know what to do. This certainly wasn't how I planned to spend my 1st wedding anniversary. I'm exhausted, but scared to try to go back to sleep in case it happens again, I can feel it bubbling under the surface.