Not again!

I could cry. Here I am at 1:30am in the aftershocks of yet another panic/anxiety attack - that makes 3 in the last week. I honestly thought I had finally got a handle on this (maybe having just a single mildish attack every 4-6 weeks). It's always the same, never happens when I'm awake, but hits me 1-2 hours after I fall asleep. Obviously there is something subconscious going on there, but I have no clue what. I really try to keep on top of my workload, take enough time for myself, and all the other things my relaxation therapist taught me. I just don't know what to do. This certainly wasn't how I planned to spend my 1st wedding anniversary. I'm exhausted, but scared to try to go back to sleep in case it happens again, I can feel it bubbling under the surface.

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  • I am in the exact same position and I'm so sorry that you are dealing with this struggle as well. I just started new medicine and it seemed to be working really well, then boom! Tonight I was hit with a horrible attack. I sometimes feel that it is always bubbling under the surface and it's hard to put it into perspective when you are in the midst of an anxiety attack. I try to remind myself that I have a good and happy life and that the attacks are just a very small percentage of my time. I always make it through and I try to tell myself with every episode that I become a little stronger and add new weapons to my arsenal to fight them. I just breath and repeat this will pass and everything will come back in to focus. Hope this helps!

  • Hi :)

    I'm sorry you're feeling low.

    Have you tried mindfulness?

    It's a great way to keep things calm.

    There are lots of apps/websites around, the one I use is

    I do this when I wake up and before going to bed.

    Also, try writing down everything you've done today, even write down how you've felt.... Empty your mind so you are not overthinking things before bed.

    Hope this helps x

  • Have you tried highlighting the thought processes that lead up to the anxiety attacks. If you can, then look at each thought/problem and try to decide why it stresses you and describe to yourself how it makes you feel.


    Half way down the page describes steps of how to: Take hold of Your mind: "What Skills"

  • No, cc120, because I'm asleep - always. I have never had a panic attack whilst conscious. It's not so easy to control the subconscious mind or dream state, unfortunately! I'm not even going to bed feeling anxious.

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