I'm happy that I found this group for I have been having some difficulty coming to terms with my new life and my new beliefs.
About 16 months ago I was a regular hard-working man and all of a sudden I was stricken with a life-threatening condition that sent me to the ICU for nine days. I had family that I haven't seen in years come to my bedside from all over the country, I had friends that I haven't seen in years come visit me, friends I didn't even know were friends come visit me which was a very comforting and wonderful thing when you're in that kind of condition.
Somethings about the whole experience changed me for the better, the little things didn't really matter anymore, the petty things didn't matter, I decided to forgive all these people who I thought wrong me for years, people who I haven't talk to in forever and decided to forgive and forget. Why be angry at someone for something someone did to do to you or you thought they did to you that was so petty I felt life was too short to be that petty about someone or something that you can't even remember what you were angry about. Simple things look more beautiful to me flowers birds animals, I could sit for an hour at the zoo and just look at an elephant or or watch the birds they were more beautiful more majestic me to me than they have ever been before maybe it's because I value every second of my life that I have I said to my family this is my second chance and I'm not going to a waste a second.
On the other hand some things change not for the worse, but have change my views on things such as religion. I used to be a Christian man but my views changed in the direction of I don't really think there's a higher power. I think that man is mortal but man also has the ability to heal man and man is also imperfect but there's no higher being that is Striking down or creating miracles for you to be healed so I re-examined all of that I found some of my family doesn't believe in that but that's my own choices and they respect that.
The question I have for anyone here is, are the feelings I'm having unique or does anyone else feel any joyfulness for surviving their experience and/or do they have any change in their belief system or my the only one?
If you believe a higher power helped you survive, do you believe you we're saved for a specific purpose?