I had a 2.5wk ICU stay in 2003 due to septicaemia. Nearly died - was heavily sedated, ventilated along with a lot of other stuff. Very lucky escape. At the time, suffered horrific hallucinations and panic/anxiety attacks. When I finally left hospital after 6wks, I had flashbacks, nightmares and anxiety but I just threw myself into getting better and back into my old life. These things continued to a greater or less extent in the background but I dismissed them as stupid and a weakness. It was never explained to me by the staff looking after me or my GP at the time that I could experience these things so I didn't speak about them in case it was just me being a nutter.
In 2009, I experienced a very stressful situation at work and suddenly the floodgates opened on my post-ICU symptoms = the flashbacks, anxiety and nightmares returned with a vengeance. I was diagnosed with PTSD, received CBT (which was amazingly effective) and was off work for 6mths recovering.
2014 - life has moved on, I'm happily married with 2 kids and loving life. In the last few weeks, I've been under pressure at work due to workload volume/lots of extra hours plus the kids haven't been sleeping at night so I'm exhausted. The PTSD symptoms have started to creep back - anxiety leading to flashbacks in particular. I never realised it could come back so this in itself is making me anxious and frustrated. I'm scared to go back to the way I was in 2009 which was horrible.
Has anyone else experienced the return of PTSD symptoms? Have I got to live with this off and on for the rest of my life?