putting down the burden

[Lindyloo53]

I have been practising albeit a bit as hoc putting things weighing me down into an imaginary bag and putting the heavy burden of that bag down. Knowing it’s still mine and I can retreive it should I want to at any time.

I know this sounds simplistic but I simply couldn’t live with carrying it all around with me all day every day as it tired me out. No this does not mean trauma didn’t happen to me and no it does not mean I was nit deeply affected by those traumas.

I pick that bag up and take it to weekly therapy where we continue to unpack one small piece of it and process it using emdr. At the end of therapy I place everything back in the bag and put it down.

I’m finding doing it this way means I don’t get so overwhelmed I simply can’t function. My brain continues to process the bits we unpacked between sessions and if I’m feeling over burdened I place it back into that bag for it means there is more processing to be done with the residual.

It’s the only way I can live. It’s the only way I know how to function. It’s working for me.

[PNIAuthor60 Major Contributor]

I love the simplicity of your remedy Lindyloo53, thanks for sharing! You are very insightful in this post revealing your evolving recovery - an encouragement for each one of us on a similar path

[Nathalie99 Partner]

Thank you for sharing your coping, Lindyloo.

I used to write, short stories, philosophical things and poems. I remember writing about carrying all this when I was 16/17 and it got published in a place with lots of reach.

I wanted to know how to out it down but couldn't figure it out.

I tried to process recent trauma and couldn't in one go, it overwhelmed my body and made me sick. I think there is only so much the body can handle and it's not possible to process everything in one go.

Thank you for sharing your therapy insights...