I am new here and deeply entrenched in recovery from PTSD. I went off of the SSRI I had been on for years about two months ago and am so grateful to be free of the side effects of that medication once and for all. I am feeling pretty betrayed by the medical and mental health professionals who have been prescribing this med and diagnosing me as having depression and anxiety but completely missing my PTSD. I realize now that both were symptoms of a bigger problem that was being ignored and the medication numbed me out so much that I just carried on with things but have pretty much been a hollow shell of a person.
Lately I have been having issues with mood swings and anxiety, but I wouldn't say depression. I have been weepy, but in a manageable way and I am deep in the grief part of my journey and would think that tears are appropriate. The anxiety is the major factor at play here and is pretty distressing on an almost daily basis. So, I made an appt to see a psych nurse practitioner and discuss the possibility of an anti anxiety med to help me manage my symptoms and the appt was today. The appt itself was awful and unfortunately reflective of the trend of managed care, assembly line treatment these days. She interviewed me which consisted of checking off her checklist and very little actual conversation. At the end she automatically wanted to put me on Lexapro. When I told her no, that I did not want to go back on an SSRI, she then made it clear she didn't agree, but suggested mood stabilizers and Lamictal specifically. I am very reluctant to go back on an daily medication and expressed that I would prefer to treat the anxiety episodically. She basically acted as though I was drug seeking and wouldn't do it. I may or may not return to this person because I have few options, but I left with a prescription for Lamictal. There seems to be very little on the internet about it and I am curious if anyone has any experience with it. I am just so wary of becoming numb or blunted in anyway again or taking a med that will inhibit my healing work and progress.
Anyway, a longwinded way to ask if anyone has experience with Lamictal specifically or just general experience with meds and PTSD that might be helpful?