Not ALONE

[LittleBribri]

A couple years ago I was on the Doctor Oz show. They interviewed me and pretty much made me look disturbingly pathetic. Yes I have dissociative identity disorder but that's not all that I am!! I'm an author, punished even!! I'm a singer, sang professionally for a while. I'm the creater and administrator of a large group of individuals with DID. We nearly have 2k people. I have an author's page on Amazon. I'm living in love with my favorite man in the world....

I do have DID. I have traumatic remembering, awful PTSD, I have major massive panic attacks, I'm very OCD... And yes it's hard, dear Lord it's very hard!!

But I'm still worth it!

I had leukemia 21 years ago but I've been in remission for 20 years! I just had surgery last month and had some skin and muscle removed from a different type of cancer, but once again I'm cancer free!!

I'm not as pathetic as I'm seen as sometimes. I work hard every moment that I'm conscious to be all that I can be.

... do you ever wish that people would see all of you? Your flaws and your accomplishments, your fears and your dreams, your pain and your joy?

I didn't ask to be sold as a baby. I didn't ask to be rented out as a young child. I didn't want to be traded for drugs and alcohol. I never looked for men and women 30+ years older than me to do despicable things to me....

It happened before I had a choice.

I ran away.

I called the police.

I chose to get away from all of that.

........and I'm the one left with the ghosts from this past haunted by the acts of evil.

I'm not sure why it is this way. It's like being punished for..... Being born?

It's hard!!

I'm not finished yet. I'm still here. I'm not ready to give up. I'm ....

... Just hoping that I'll be able to sleep tonight. Sleep without night terrors. Sleep without crying out in pain from remembering....

But, no matter what I'll begin again in the morning... And hopefully have another chance to make a difference... To help someone struggling to know they aren't alone.

If you have read this entire thing you need to know that you aren't alone.

You need to know that I'm here with you right now. That I know it's hard for you too. You are important and your heart beating right now means that you still have a purpose here. Let's do this together. Take a deep breath and know that I'm in this with you.

Let's do this together!!

All my love,

Bri

[LittleBribri]

Lol published!!! 🤣🤣🤣

[cat3]

Love to you too Bri…. x

[claretand]

The ghosts live with you forever. A childhood destroyed by one that you should have been able to trust above all else. The childhood years that should have been carefree, filled with joy and happiness replaced with fear, chairs wedged under bedroom doors and hidden secrets. Many years on the anger is still palpable, the impact in later years on so many close to me still filling my life with burning questions. The ghosts are still there, behind closed doors but sadly doors that I can never lock. Alone, in my thoughts yes, in my support no. Despite my TBI my childhood memories remain, my eyes filled with tears as a write this but my heart filled with pride for my achievements and for the love of those that surround me.

[1949liz]

God Bless You for a real Blessing Love Liz x🙏🌹

[Jacacc]

Wonderfully put Bri, we are all here together for one another, thank you xx

[Hidden]

That is truly inspiring. Thank you Bri.

Love

David

x

[Oceandreams]

Bless you. Did you find writing helped? I’d like to write my story to get it all out and maybe help others. But when I start it brings back trauma. Is it worth sticking with?

[LittleBribri in reply to Oceandreams]

Great question!! I know that for me if I end with some kind of hope it becomes really therapeutic ❤️❤️❤️