I feel sad at the potential loss of a friend, who I saw as a sister and who told me she felt the same. My best friend was by my side throughout my stay in ICU, whilst I was in a coma. I am told she was there as much as possible, I went for my first outing from the neuro rehab ward with her and she stayed with me the first night I came home from 3 months ionhospital. Through my early recovery she was always there incouraging me and cheering me on. I did so much and was really proud of myself and grateful for the support, we went to concerts, we ran, we walked, camping, she came to my PIP interview with me, we did loads together along with her family. I felt so supported and grateful for having my fantastic friend looking out for me. Then suddenly the contact lessened, she got a new job and I was so happy for her it made sense. But then the doubts set in, she seemed to not believe me when I would talk about the negative symptoms I was suffering that were getting worse as time went along, she would question me and ,make me feel like I wasn't believed or that I was making it up. She didn't seem to believe in the fatigue and would say things like "but your coming up to 2 years and you should be better" or "you could do this last summer, why not now?", these doubts and questions hurt me and make me feel like I'm doing something wrong. The final nail in the coffin was when she text to ask if I was going to go to an event I had invited her and her family to and I said I needed a shower, she replied with "we're leaving in 5 minutes". I was a bit put out as I struggle to do things at the last minute now, I get stressed and confused. So I responded this in a text, I said I didn't thin k it was fair she gave me 5 minutes knowing that I struggle now. No response, no response and not contacted me for 2 weeks. Just cut me off for speaking my mind for once. 13 years of friendship cut off for what, I'm being punished for having an accident, punished for not being the person I used to be and punished for not being able to do the things I used to be able to do. As well as this friend I have lost my partner, we have drifted apart throughout my recovery and can no longer spend time together. I know they must be struggling with the "new" me, like I'm not struggling with how am now. My life has been turned upside down and I'm expected to return to being the person I used to be, its just not going to happen.
Sorry for the moan peeps, I just had to get it off my chest. Brain injury sucks and I'm feeling pretty fed up.
Has anyone else lost partners and friends since their BI's? and how have you coped with it and made new friends? is it even possible?
I just don't understand what I have done wrong, I had an accident that broke my brain. Surely I have been punished enough by this event xx