Long story short:
Fell asleep at 4am woke up at 9:30am told my manager that I've pulled a all nighter due to sudical thoughts, dragged myself into work at 11am, my manager had told his manager (the good one who isn't technically his manager any more but has helped me in the past) so when I got in we have a 4 hour talk putting everything in my head right, straighten my crown and walked out of work feeling like I can take on anything and am 1 million dollar women again for any people concerned, before the pep talk I did have a conversation with both trade union and headway Bristol and when I got home I had the same 4 hour conversation pep talk again but with slightly different topics over the phone with the deg chair
Short short version: no more suicidal thoughts but I do feel mentally battered and bruised but that's nothing sleep cant fix as it's now completely squiffy
Really glad you seeked help ! You are worth it. 🙏❤
Thank you I was going to say as well if anyone ever feels the same listen to either Emma blackery or cristen bellabraden as those are me two go too artists and if music isn't your think listen anyway you may shock yourself and fine it touches you on a level you didn't know about