Update post thing

[bexx87]

Long story short:

Fell asleep at 4am woke up at 9:30am told my manager that I've pulled a all nighter due to sudical thoughts, dragged myself into work at 11am, my manager had told his manager (the good one who isn't technically his manager any more but has helped me in the past) so when I got in we have a 4 hour talk putting everything in my head right, straighten my crown and walked out of work feeling like I can take on anything and am 1 million dollar women again for any people concerned, before the pep talk I did have a conversation with both trade union and headway Bristol and when I got home I had the same 4 hour conversation pep talk again but with slightly different topics over the phone with the deg chair

Short short version: no more suicidal thoughts but I do feel mentally battered and bruised but that's nothing sleep cant fix as it's now completely squiffy

[Angelia1234]

Really glad you seeked help ! You are worth it. 🙏❤

[bexx87 in reply to Angelia1234]

Thank you I was going to say as well if anyone ever feels the same listen to either Emma blackery or cristen bellabraden as those are me two go too artists and if music isn't your think listen anyway you may shock yourself and fine it touches you on a level you didn't know about

[RecoveringH]

Thanks for the update Bex : ) "walked out of work feeling like I can take on anything and am 1 million dollar women " - if you could put that feeling in a jar what would it look like, where would you store it, how would you access it again and wear it like a cloak?

Now your nervous system has worn this feeling once, it knows it and can do it again! Keep it fresh, keep wearing the cloak of this feeling lest you forget! Planting bulbs in your honour today Bex - white hyacinths and little iris. Namaste - I see the warrior spirit in youx

Best.

[Shon48]

Well done . Another journey in this epic one . Stay as strong as you can and good that you have something to help . Sometimes a wee pep talk is all you need to get back on track. I think you are amazing 👏👏👏🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿

[moo196]

Well done!! Keep a copy of this post just in case you need to refer back.

You did well.

Try to rest over the weekend.

[bexx87]

Thank you all I have a messed sleeping pattern and feel asleep early hours of this morning and only got woken by another colleague who is my neighbour to check if I was okay and we had another long pep talk conversation and I'm ready to go back to sleep and still recover I have Monday off so im hoping I can get things sorted and re straighten by then

[Cj-195]

Good you follow to get a union. I feel like that when I worked. I loved my job. It the people who don't understanding. I can understand you. How hard to work with disabled brain. I thought that the goverment will help us, NO!!!!! I think people is a tick in the box. All this fighting after is so hard. Blackpool group tell me they have a solicitor who come to see you in your home but fasled hope is not good. I am a caring Lady for us NOT for a crap group or the goverment will don't help you. Xxxx