I feel very unsupported warning long post

[bexx87]

°deep sigh°

I've been back to work for 2 days and the stress is already starting to build.

If you don't know I went on very much leave last week before I went off I got thing in order so things would be ready for when I got back because I know this week will be busy but do you think it went smoothly .... hell no.

My manager was very much aware what I had on when I come back and knows (due to me constantly reminding him but it just it's sticking added to the frustration) about my medication reduction.

So I had a very big upgrade to do yesterday (which again my manager knew about before I went on leave) but he still allow a meet that I had to attend for a big °project move° to be done half way thru the upgrade I was going so I had to stop it to do that and there was a 3rd party coming in to rack a sever that I didn't know about but had to escort and babysit them in our data centre while they racked it and my manger scanned off again stalling my upgrade (so I wannt in a happy mood for headway bristol social group last night) so I come in today to go to Swindon for 8 am I had to be in work @ 6am to pick up the van then do things in Swindon an bring it all back to bristol an the van gear slipped a I was coming off the motorway doin 50 with kit in the back lingerie van back to th office unloaded it th gear box slipped a further 3 times causing the engine to start smoking so because my manger vanished I left early and he's had to deal with the upgrade fail from yesterday (oh boo hoo if you left me alone and didn't interrupt me it would be upgraded) and there is only one person in the entire office (my managers manager who understand the fact I have brain Injury and mental illness and medication reduction) who every time my manager plays the we will dismal you for poor performance card (f#$king hello medication side effects) he has to console me and to top it all off I have wait a further FOUR months to see biru who put me on this medication and I have to find time to see my go to get more of the reduced medication and have a review and I've only been back from dawlish 4 days and I feel very lost and frustrated

[Hidden]

This is unfair to you and probably illegal, companies are supposed to support anyone with a disability. Is there someone more senior you can see to explain what assistance you need to enable you to do your job properly?

[bexx87 in reply to Hidden]

probably I am going to try and find time to day to make a appointment with my GP and see what they say

[brumatmed]

Bex, there is an old adage which says that you often need a holiday to get over your holiday, but in your case you appear to need a holiday to get over the work which built up over your holiday! I am a little confused (as is my want) 'lingerie vans'? - another typo, or a bit of detail on the type of vehicle who pranged you?? On the whole it makes sense though, however if I were you, I'd speak with my managers manager and ask him to hold some sort of training session with the offending under manager to enlighten him/ her/ it about your medical conditions and the best approaches to treat them. (BCC are very good at this sort of 'self help' stuff and often see it as personal development as it allows you to describe yourself)

[bexx87]

*waves*

I was trying to type it as fast as I could before my kindle died and recently my spelling hasn't been on par (maybe I need to re-train my brain on touch typing again using good ole Mavis Beacon)

When I mentioned to my Manager about the failed upgrade his response what I haven't seen any emails about calm being failed, he then checked his emails to see yes there are unanswered emails and he responsed Rebecca will be intouch shortly, which I did but the restore went fine so its now back p are running (yaaaay) but I have said I will be on stand by if need be to re-do it and Fleet Services were shocked to see that I am driving the van (they tried to pick it up from trenchard street and gear slipped when they got to the bottom of the hill so limped it to college street car park (I don't think the believed how bad it has gotten) and now a pick up truck is coming to pick it up and take it back, in the mean time they have gotten a replacement van ready to be collected) so they wanted me to submit my driving license details ect so they have it for their record which was fine and its a current nightmare trying to get hold of my doctor as I get line busy line busy for a hour I have put my medical thing in my PMDS and the fax services went down last week but I rebooted it on Monday and I was talking to the live well team who used to use it and my manager walked past and as I came back to my desk he asked me who I was talking to so I explained how they used to use the fax service but now don't and we occasionally have a chin wag while we "make coffee"

Edit:

managed to get thru to my gp got the we have no appointed available speech and the dr you want isn't in today and tomorrow, explained that I expected this, what my situation is and why I needed to specially see him and got told he will call me back this afternoon ....

and now we have a snazzy enterprise van woooo

its taken me 4 hours to get my workload together so I know what im doing the next few days and if anyone wants me there get me snapping Im busy try again tomorrow

[brumatmed]

I feel SO smug, to be honest, because my GP doesn't have an appointment system. This, of course still has both up and down sides, the main one being that you can only say that that you will be seen the day you go, the down side is, the time you get seen really does depend on the length of the queue. The surgery did a survey a bit ago and the result was that the practice has no plans to introduce an appointments system. But enough of me, beaming in the glory of the NHS, sure it has it's faults, but it is infinitely better than other than 'going private'.

I love the NHS but am deeply saddened by more 'privatisation through the back door' of our public services. I'll get off my soapbox in a moment, but while I'm here I want everyone who is reading this to think about the NHS and the survival rate in the UK of illness & disease in the years following 1948 (obviously some of this is due to medical advances but some will be due to the medical advances and the availability of these advances to the general population as opposed to the wealthy patients).

Right, that's it, the end. This is a classic illustration of me shooting off on a 90 degree tangent. Meanwhile, back at the Bex thing - Glad the van has been picked up (I am surprised it made it up Trenchard Street) - that hill is a killer, I cycled it once and my legs hurt for the rest of the day. Any road up (these puns are coming thick & fast), I have never put my medical notes in my PMDS but prefer to speak with my team leader and manager about medical matters as they always ask how I am - I think they care, or at least they are concerned that if I leave it may skew the stats as far as diversity & equality goes. I don't even think there is an opportunity/ place for you to put your medical record in the new version (My Performance), My ultimate solution, is the most annoying but the most predictable (for me anyway) 'Take it east & have a totally funky day'

Cheers

[bexx87]

yay gp called me back when I came out of the meeting and I mentioned that biru have pushed me back a further 4 months and like I predicted he isn't impressed but I am seeing him next Wednesday which is reassuring