I dont know moments

[bexx87]

Does anyone get I dont know moments with deciding what to do with there free time? I get thems lots and I just want someone else to decide what I should do lol I think its because work has been super busy due to a massive power outage on thursday which caused all the servers and switches in our data centre to over heat and power off so everyone lost a day of work and everyone is trying to play catch up and im still in recovery mode

[Jaxs050783]

No total opposite, I have always been like that and it hasn’t changed.

[bexx87 in reply to Jaxs050783]

I have days especially in work were I feel like I have to do everything within the hour then later I feel like I can't be bothered now that's I've warmed up and had a hot drink I feel more in the mood to go to the shop and get something to eat and take the rubbish out

[Jaxs050783 in reply to bexx87]

Ha, I get that. Although I got plenty of time I do things quick thinking I got so much to do. Once tasks are done I too feel more in the mood to do other things

[bexx87]

I was thinking I better get out of my jammies to get ready and my mood plummeted to nah cba now *sigh* I hope hitu can figure out what is going on with my brain because it's getting on my wick I've put up with this for at least 7/8 months now and I'm not use to it to help tackle this mood I have procrastinate plus it's now raining and I don't wanna get wet (I think)

[Jaxs050783]

Your not alone if that helps at all?

I something’s think Its really hard work tying my shoelaces, ridiculous really!

Ye it’s raining and who wants to get wet!

[Jaxs050783]

I went to HITU when it was at Frenchay.

They didn’t do much with me other than test me then flog me off

[bexx87 in reply to Jaxs050783]

Yeh that's what they did to me hwbristol referred me then hitu gave me 4 therapy sessions and some teats them they passed me to biru where I saw Dr Holloway how put me on the pregablin but he has since retired

[Jaxs050783 in reply to bexx87]

Dr Holloway was my consultant! Been on pregablin, didn’t effect me other than on my sexual proformance.

Going to try a new ssri.

[bexx87]

Thanks i also have conversation with myself (I always have done since I came out of frenchay) I think that's down to being a only child and emotional neglect from my mum but I can get in to heated debates with myself / my imaginatary friends

[Jaxs050783 in reply to bexx87]

Bless u

I’m very similar to u I can assure u, in fact so similar its scary.

[bexx87]

Bri think as I'm getting old my injury will cause me more issues my GP thinks it's the meds so the toss is with frenchay it's annoying I waited 4 months to be told the Bri can't do anything my GP (not my normal GP) referred to the Bri but when I went back to my GP and saw a senior Dr he thinks it's the meds i fear biru/hitu will take me off the meds and go on you way your fine I just don't want my anxiety scaling out of control to the point were work actually go through with dismissing me

[Jaxs050783]

I can get bad anxiety too. Taking venlafaxine at mo but I think it’s screw with me cognitively

[bexx87]

I had to explain to the d the depression and anxiety and asthma are are all bi products of my bi

[Jaxs050783]

Some docs are hard work! I can suffer from dep if not medicated. We are like 2 peas in a pod.

Once I’m free from my divorce I will try and go drug free. Probably go mental though

[brumatmed]

Hi Bex,

TBH I think quite a lot about what isn't there and how can I 'fill the void'. My latest thing was to consider 'efficiency within my head' which led to arguing with myself the point that if I have identified an inefficiency in my own head, then I must be more efficient or I wouldn't have noticed it. This argument could go on but basically if you notice a fault you can fix it and, possibly, prevent it in the first place as we all think at the speed of light (the connection speed of neurones). As no-one can move at the speed of light (standstill point of time if you believe Einstein) our actions will always be slower than our thoughts. If we could 'speed up' our actions we could prevent faults, we would have to speed up our motor neurone activity sympathetically as this would allow us to control muscle impulses thus improving ourselves exponentially - by the way how is the 'knit your own brain' going? and I still know nothing about blueberry bushes!

Take it easy

[bexx87 in reply to brumatmed]

I started to make a neuron but then gave up and have touched it since lol and my bush is coming along well hehe

[brumatmed]

I wish I had looked at the conversation before I wrote my epic. It seems that the conversation is more about energy levels than inner turmoil's - I always seem to have a low level of energy. Even though I can argue with myself until the cows come home, I find it hard to justify the need to do the laundry, washing up, vacuum cleaning, or anything which means that I have to get out of bed - thank god for the teas-made or I would have died through dehydration by now. If it wasn't for the sure and absolute knowledge that if I didn't get up and go to work (but it's still dark outside!), my mortgage wouldn't get paid and I would be on the streets - this is the only prospect which motivates me (if there was an alternative, why haven't people taken it?). Of course, the other side of the coin is 'Do I have low energy, motivation etc. or do I just not like the idea of doing these rather mundane tasks?'

The jury is out...

[bexx87 in reply to brumatmed]

its about both energy levels and inner turmoils I started out whines about energy levels then went off on a tangent

[brumatmed]

Fair enough, does anyone out there in the cyber verse of Bristol fancy going to the Brain Injury Café? (How's THAT for a tangent?) its a 'drop in' and not officially linked to BIRU/ HITU or Headway - all we do is meet for a chat to discuss aspects of Brain Injury in a casual setting (the next date is the 21st Feb - Wed) and fortnightly follow on. The new venue is Windmill Hill City Farm, Philip Street, Bedminster, Bristol, BS3 4EA it starts at 1pm for an hour - Any excuse for a plug!!

Anyway, now I have done the obligatory plug for the BIC, I was wondering about calming methods of helping BI such as meditation - does anyone hold out much hope or have any experience (I am trying to cut down on meds but don't want to be a div about it)