I'm very confused by this emotions thing, very confused. I don't know how I should feel and trauma is very hard to deal with.
My nana died last night, my dads mum who I'm very close too.
My brother who Iv never heard from since the crash so I have nothing to do with had a sprog last night. It would of been a baby not not anymore now it's an evil sprog and its mother is more disliked than she already was. It was late, was it waiting to take her life. Am I meant to be happy or sad cause I'm sad
My mum and dad are divorced and my mum never bothers with my dads side. My mum idealises my ikle brother so will ring with pure happiness in her voice when there nothing happy to me. It's taken the time we should be sad and made it all about it.
I really don't know how to handle this joy, sadness. I wouldn't really of been really happy for them anyway but would of been good pretending I am, now nothing. Nothing at all but anger the selfish thing, was it just waiting. Is it true what they say, one in one out. One has to die to let a new one in ??????