Well for everyone else at least. It makes me so pissed that I missed out on 2 and half years of uni, just when I started dating this girl that I liked, and now I can barely focus on anything. Everything was so god-damn sweet.
It's just so suffocating to think about my future, and the reality of my situation is so inescapable. It makes me want to curl up into a ball a die in a corner.
The doctor now says that my surgery has a FIFTY PERCENT CHANCE of working. Can you get your head around that?? I just had to have a stroke (at the age of TWENTY) and have it come from an actual structure in my brain that can't be cut out.
What am I supposed to do? "The only thing you can do is move on". Bullshit. Why are we born to think and feel, why are we given this ability to be crushed emotionally. It doesn't help in any way.