Insomnia

[shellsbelle]

hmmmmm i wonder if i blog too much lol i guess thats the downside of insomnia I have been thinking a lot today after speaking to a lady on the headway helpline one thing that stuck out was that she thinks that ihave coped extremely well considering what i have gone through i just said to her ive had to for the kids when i had my stroke and heart surgery in 2009 my daughter was only 2 and now having the bleed and suspected ms my boy was only 9 weeks when it happened and now he is 14 weeks i know i need to be strong for them i know ihad a wobble by saying maybe it would of been better for everyone if i had of died but i know i didnt mean it i guess we all have our really dark days i know whatever is thrown at me i can fight it i didnt have anyoneor support when i had the stroke but now i have my civil partner who supports and looks after us all so if i can fight a stroke basically alone with 3 months rehab i can fight this my dad gave me a big boost today he is paying for me and my family to go to cropredy festival which we are really excited about but i am secretly nervous as i worry it may be too much but it is only 45 mins from home so imsure it will be ok just thought it was about time i posted somthing a bit more positive for a change lol the pic is of my kids my life x

[Molly15]

I have read your messages, and I have to say I think you are absolutely amazing after going through so much. Good for you, enjoy the festival. Its great to have something to look forward to. Your little ones are beautiful, and give you so much to live for Im sure. Keep strong, your children will be so proud of you.

Best wishes, Molly x

[Mikesghost]

Your positive mental attitude is essential to recovery. We all get dark days when it seems that we will never be our old selves again. It takes time, it's been just over three years since my brain tumor was removed and I'm not 100% but I am now fit enough to hold down a full time job and do all the the things I need around the house and garden.

Have a great time at the festival and stay positive!

[B_S_A]

Good on you for going out and doing it!

If you can't sleep, listen to this rainymood.com/

Hope all goes well for you.

[shellsbelle in reply to B_S_A]

thanks i'll give it a go x

[cat3]

Well done, Michelle, for contacting Headway & it seems to have had a positive effect.

I'm glad to hear that your dad is 'on side' and I hope that you and your partner and your kids have a brilliant day at the festival. You'll be fine ........ just remember to keep breathing properly !!

Hope you all have a lovely day & it's good to see you being so positive.

Love, cat

[cat3 in reply to cat3]

PS your kids are beautiful. x

[shellsbelle]

the festival is from a thursday to sat its camping we love camping its in august so hopefully the weather will be better my dad has always been ok but he is old and has a young family to look after himself my comments about no support were mainly aimed at my mum as i moved here to be close to her but we have just drifted apart and i dont think she treats me like a mother shout treat their child but oh well thats life x thanks for all the comments

[Blue12]

Just you try and forget everything and goe and enjoy urself you deserve it youve been through a lot with the sounds of it lol Blue12.

[SAMBS]

hi shellsbelle you have 2 beautiful children and he best reason in the world to live- I only had my brain iinjury earlier this year I live in France) but am english NS i GUESS i'VE MORE TOCOME WITH MY MENTAL STAUS, JUST REVERING FROM A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN AND HAVE ONLY JUST FOUND HEADWAY - WOW YOU ALL GIVE ME HOPE WHEN I READ YOUR POSTS - AND THAT GIVES ME SOME POSITIVE MENTAL ATTITUDE - i LIVE ALONE HERE AND AM WORKING TOWARDS TRYING TO GET BACK TO UK AND HEADWAY.

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