It’s back to the drawing board tomorrow, having exhausted all hope with previously advised self-help. I had expected some intense pain from the exercise, but not near as much as I am in. It has been six weeks since I began with my Physiotherapist and I would expect this level of pain had I never exercised before. However, I have always exercised, whether it be aerobics, yoga, pilates or sport. I am, in many ways, very fit and very flexible. I’ve tried working through the pain, but it’s just too much. I’ve tried resting until the pain goes away, but it doesn’t. Nothing compares to the burn. It floors me.
As well as exercise, I have tried both anti-depressants and nerve-relaxants, but I see no difference, even as a higher dose. The painkillers prescribed to me (Codipar) are absolute rubbish, and I know this makes me sound like a knob, but it all feels so cruel.
This week has been the worst ever for my pain. I’ve got a terrible urine infection, too, so I’m off to see the Doctor, yet again, first thing tomorrow. I’m running out of hope for the cure or relief I’ve spent four years searching for. When I ask for help, I get told that I cannot have strong painkillers as I may get addicted. What do they think I am? Some sort of junkie? I see so many heroine addicts pick up their methadone every day. They don’t get sent away. (Sorry)
So, wish me luck…