Im sorry guys I'm really struggling. My anxiety is sky high it will just not back off no matter how much I use my coping skills. I really don't want to live like this. I've had yet another guy reject me. I am absolutely sick of men,please please don't tell me I will find the right one,after 44 years I doubt it's going to happen now. I wish I could just accept it and not keep trying and. Continually getting hurt. I feel humiliated. I'm eating too much again which is a worry after loosing so much weight but what's the point of being slim? Hasn't got rid of the fibro,I still feel as lonely as ever. What has happened to that woman I was? Oh yes she has been reduced to this self pitying whining thing. I just keep going for the kids and try to hide how bad I am feeling. Nothing seems to be helping.