I'm a mum of six children, our oldest being 8yr and youngest 1.5yr I'm married to my husband we've been married 8yr in August. I've got chronic fatigue syndrome, fibromyalgia, and IBS. My husband is my carer, as it was too much for me on a good day to get all six children ready and myself to take the oldest 4 to school for me to come home and get my little boy ready for nursery at 1pm, and back to school at 3pm to fetch them all home and then do normal parent things eg making dinner, washing, hearing children read do spellings etc..... I feel such a bad mum, I still hear them read and do homework and spellings, but for them not to have a normal mum is crushing me inside, my husband can't cope anymore I dont think, we had a mass argument a week ago him saying were just in the house doing nothing, being bored, he was really mean and called me "a old biddy of a wife" I'm still hurt from this. he's tired all the time, he's currently in bed and as been since 9:30(I stayed in bed tip 9:00am) had a bad night, I told him to go to bed as it gets me down him lounging around, so at the minute I'm sat with my six children watching puss in boots, I've done the school uniforms and had a little tidy round my lot. It's never ending with six children. I feel so bad towards everyone as family and friends don't understand. I feel my husband doesn't understand deep down, I'm exhausted all the time, I've been told I'm a crap mum, (by my husband) truly hurt inside, why me? I try my best by everyone and it's not right.
I've been diagnosed with fm cfs and IBS since 2007 so it's been a while where I've coped and muddled on with everything, June 2011 I had to get my husband to finish work, it started off as 52hr down to 24hr then 16hr and I eventually couldn't cope at all, I have him help me in the shower, with my hair getting dressed, it's such a awful thing to have I'm only 24 and I feel 54!! My husband is 26 (27in August) so I know it's hard on him as it is me.
My friends try and tell my husband that I'm just severely depressed and should see a doctor imam depressed but it's fm cfs and IBS I put up with. I hate the
Life I live in but my children are my world. my medication is : gabapentin, naproxen, amitryptyline, duloxetine, cocodamol 30/500, tramadol, tramadol modified release.
Sorry about the long post I'm just venting.