Hiya guys,i havent been on in ages due to massive flare up and bed bound,so i went to gp again and she put me on diazipam,omg....since ive been on them i am having horiffic mood swings tot he stage i want to punch someone,crying loads and feeling like taking all my pills and quiting.
I know your all thinking thats stupid and a cowards way out,'cos ive felt the same at times and its worse cos my kids are 300 miles away being cared for by my parents as i cant care for them anymore due to this bloody ME.
My flat is full of mold and damp,i have no shower and i need one every day as i have a stoma bag,workers should of come out today,never showed which set me off again to the stage i had a massive panic attack and fit.
oh yeah guys,by the way i said i would let you know what gp said about fits,she says i dont need to see a specialist as she knows whats best,yesh right!not.......
Im fitting on average now 3 times a week,and have now developed these feelings of anger and suicidle,and burning arms that are bright red and purple blotches at top,i dont know what it is,could it be related to the ME ????
I'm sorry to rant on guys,but today has been a very bad day and i feel like a bag of shite,in severe paina nd have to go now as hands are curling up and typing is getting sdifficult.
hugs to you all,hope you are all well and still smiling. love you all.xxxxjules