After being in so much pain on Tuesday afternoon and walking like a 90 year old, I got up yesterday morning feeling very sorry for myself, every little thing had me bursting into tears. I managed to get a telephone consultation with my doctor as I felt my pain meds just weren't working - I walk around rattling with the amount of tablets I'm taking, plus the pain patch that I wear and yet I am still in pain, my doctor wants to see me on Friday, so that I can take a depression test!!! My neighbour then asked if I was depressed - my reply "of course I'm bloody depressed, I've been in constant pain for 5 years now, my life has no resemblance of what it used to be like and I have completely had enough" but no I'm not depressed, just having a self pitying day. Went to bed last night to try and sleep - couldn't as usual, however, whilst trying to get comfortable it popped into my head that my blue badge that I had reapplied for (the old one is about to expire) hadn't come through yet - I applied for it in February!!! Blooming Fibro Fogs - unless I make a note with an alarm, I cannot remember a thing!! So then of course I'm trying to make myself remember this morning to phone up and chase it - without forgetting again!! So any chance of dropping off was completely gone! I did also set an alarm on my phone to chase it - which I have now done.
OK rant over, still having a bit of a self pity party, but hopefully I can pull myself out of it soon.
Hope everyone else is OK - gentle hugs xx