I didn't get to sleep til about 4/5am however I spent most of the night talking about everything and anything with my boyfriend which was really nice and he is begging me to stay atm. I don't know what to say or do. He thinks I'm overreacting, and that he is sorry about what he said but he was stressed and didn't mean it. But I am so scared he'll say it again and I want to distance myself until I feel I trust him not to be like that again. He says I'm the least stressful thing in his life but I always feel like I don't do things right around him. There's always something I haven't done. So I just don't know what to say, my stomach feels like it's in knots atm and I just don't know what to do. Its 2 weeks, 5 days until my tribunal and a piece of written work is due. Its 2 weeks, 4 days until I have an exam. Its 1 week and 4 days until a group video is due. Its 1 week and 2 days until a piece of written work is due. I am so unbelievably stressed, its making me so tired! I just wanna go home to parents and not come back to birmingham until the term is over but I can't do that
I have only about 10 tramadol left now, and I don't see the doctor til Thursday. I took 6 yesterday!
Urgh, I can't concentrate on my work, I'm glad I've got you guys and my friends to talk to.
Another problem with my boyfriend is that my closest friend at uni is a guy who liked me a couple of years ago but I stupidly told my boyfriend when we first met and he thinks this guy still likes me, but he's on my year at uni and I spend a lot of time with him as we work together and it really helps me as he knows about my condition and helps me remember certain uni stuff and encourages me to do well. He's one of the people I would be moving in with next year, which again I think will help me, my grades and my condition. But I know that there is nothing between and never will.
But I love my boyfriend move than anything in the world. It hurts not to be around him, I am constantly thinking about him. We've planned our life together...