A lovely person!

[Katyloo]

Can I ask? Is anyone suffering with a bit of agoraphobia, because I definitely am. A lovely lady on here, has asked to befriend me, I so, so want to, because my life now, is so unrecognizable to 4 or 5 years ago. I have my lovely partner, I don't know what I'd do without, and one of my Son's and his 8 yr old and 3 yr old, but they have their own lives. I have no friends now, probably because I was the live wire then, Well, I didn't ask for this. But I am terrified! Of making new friends, I'm scared they'll ridicule me or something. My partner says my past is to blame, ( a violent, sexually abusive childhood by my Father, then, never had time to recover, met my (now ex) husband at 15, who was coersive, manipulating and very jealous, I had good jobs, working with drug addiction and acholism, I have jobs offered working with rape victims, my ex said I couldn't cope with some of the jobs, so I didn't. But I was good at one of them for 4 yrs. At an addiction unit. He took me away from there after a major break down. I went to work with my Ex! Oh! He undermined me every second he could. I had the business head, he was the intelligence with the vehicles, And, Wow, was he good! But so, was I, the business boomed, until I got it to the point I could go in part time, things were so I good. Then, all of a sudden. My ex had a "Red Bull moment (other energy drinks are available), he became the big man and basically messed it up so much that the powers that be investigated us. I resigned! And ended up doing invoicing and book work at home, And unpaid. Why is it there always seems to be some sort of mental abuse or physical tragedy and that most of us have Fibromyalgia. It proves that we know s*d all about the human brain!

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Agoraphobia sucks doesn't it! You just have to make the most of going out with someone when you're up to it....