today was a tough one it finally happened I lost my job. after 6 years of hiding the pain, illness, exhaustion, dreading each morning praying I wouldn't have to phone in sick.
my illness and symtoms have increased in the past two years. Its not just a salary to loose it's my independant, my vocation, a purpose and value.
I feel numb, confused, anxious about the future. that I have let my family down, deep down I know it's the illnesses that have lead me down this path. it will take time to adjust and get my thoughts together. I just need sleep and a bit of time.
Maybe there are new opportunities in the future - I really hope so.