I don't usually like to post this kind of thing as I do feel it is rather negative......but.......I feel I need to put my thoughts down somewhere. I really feel very down about life at the moment. I have been feeling the effects of illness and progressive disability for over 3 years now. I am not an evil person so why when I need people the most have they turned their backs on me?
I just turned 35 yesterday and spent the day with my mother. I did not have any friends around to take me for a few drinks and spent yesterday evening alone at home. I received 9 birthday cards, 7 of those being from family. My brother called me last night at 9pm almost as an after thought. I have 3 siblings but I have so far only received 2 gifts, the others still being in the post.
I got lots of messages on social media but no-one was actually there in person. I have stopped visiting relatives as it has never been reciprocated. I have lived in the same place for over 6 years and had only a handful of visits. People have often said they would come and visit but they never do. Sometimes I think that if I didn't have my cat I would be a total mess! Sorry about this but I just feel hopeless.