Hi, I haven't posted on here for a long while, just been reading posts. I'm 34 years old and I am nearly at the end of my tether at work. I used to be PCSO with the Police and i thoroughly enjoyed it but I now have a clerical job in another department and it really doesn't 'float my boat.' I got told I had fibro a couple of years ago by a Rheumy and pressured my G.P. as I wasn't satisfied due to increasing mobility problems (weakness/fatigue). So last September I saw a Neurologist, had an MRI in October 2012 that was clear. I was discharged from Neurology as a registrar didn't think my symptoms were Neurological I wrote to the consultant and got another appointment as my symptoms were worse & my limbs were so weak. I was diagnosed with 'functional weakness', a disorder of the nervous system, neurological after all. I am now seeing a physiotherapist and seeing Liason Psychiatry, things I wouldn't have got without pushing the G.P. and consultant.
The thing is, the job I have as Clerk is getting so difficult, they are not happy that I am unable to do all that is expected of me and are starting to discipline me. I took 4 weeks off sick but now I have gone back I feel like I am sinking. My pain is all over my body all of the time. I have Pregabalin 100mg, Tramadol, Paracetamol & Naproxen but none of it gives me enough relief I never have a good day. Out of desperation I went to the job centre and spoke to a disability advisor & they will try to help. I know I can't cope with my current job but I really don't want to go on ESA from reading how difficult it is to get. I'm on my own and need my current income otherwise I fear I will lose everything I have worked so hard to get. What should I do? I've nearly resigned a couple of times but I know I won't get a penny from the Social if I do that.