Feeling like this hasn't worked again

[YellowStar4]

Currently 7dp5dt and have another 5 days till beta - first week of the 2ww I felt a ton of different things but was most likely all the meds I'm on, now on the 2nd week i feel nothing just sore boobs and sometimes the colour of my nipples change. I feel like I'm going crazy this is my 3rd transfer and can't stop thinking. I'm on a new protocol with probiotics due to low lactobacillus in my uterus and had extra hcg shots due to low NK cells and high B cells so if this doesn't work I'll feel like I've really hit a wall with no other options. Has anyone ever felt like it's constantly never going to happen to them? I think I'm preparing myself for the 3rd fail

[Booda21]

sending you lots of love and strength! And hoping that you do get a positive. I’m usually right when I think it’s over and I have no symptoms. But it is not always the case as loads of ladies on here have no symptoms and go on to get their BFP. Good luck for your OTD ✨ xxx

[Truehopeful]

hey,

I’m one day behind you 6dpt and it’s also my third transfer.

I have felt exactly the same I feel like this transfer has failed and I can’t stop those thoughts entering my mind. I have zero symptoms.

My first ended in miscarriage and I felt all sorts of symptoms. So this makes me believe it hasn’t worked.

You think a change in protocol would help give you hope but the tww is excruciating.

When’s your test date?

[YellowStar4 in reply to Truehopeful]

Awh I’m sorry to hear about your miscarriage it’s understandable for you to compare this transfer to your first one since it stuck. My test date is Saturday so I’ll be 12dpt. Whens yours? 🙏🏻 I even tried testing out my trigger hcg but then i stopped after 2 dates to try not fixate on the whole thing.

It’s true I thought I’d feel all types of things with the new protocol especially peace of mind but nope I just fixate and symptom check every chance I get.

A part of me wants Saturday to rip the band aid off but then I dread to be out of this bubble also. Waiting for the email result to come in will also be a ball ache 😣

[Truehopeful in reply to YellowStar4]

I can test from 9dpt I had a 5 day frozen transfer don’t know if it makes any difference. So test day is Friday 😖 nervous.

What’s a trigger hcg? Oh do you get a blood to test hcg? Must be different protocol to different clinics.

I just wish you the very best whatever the outcome. Thinking of you 🥰

[YellowStar4 in reply to Truehopeful]

It’s all so tiring right? Just constantly thinking of whats potentially happening 😔

Trigger shot is whats generally used for egg collection to nudge the body to start prepping to release the eggs and it’s loded with HCG and I took this injection 3 times around my transfer for my adapted protocol so when I tested during my 2ww it was picking it up and wasn’t accurate for whats rlly going on. Yep on my test date it’s a blood test (other clinics just ask for a preg test). Will be thinking of you this week 🙏🏻🙏🏻✨

[MultiMagpie]

TWW is excruciating - my last one, I had two embryos put in and the whole TWW I ONLY had sore boobs, nothing else. 100% convinced it didn’t work and me and Hubbie were preparing ourselves for the worst. Then the day of the blood test I woke up and was quite light headed and dizzy and whinged that I was coming down with something, just what I needed. Got my first ever positive and now 13 weeks pregnant with 1 baby.

On a side note, I didn’t get ANY symptoms til about 9 weeks, was constantly googling if this was alright, but then I started feeling sickly, extreme fatigue and really sore nips so now wishing I was fine again haha.

Point is, you really can’t base a success on if you have symptoms; it’s so annoying but it just doesn’t work that way, you literally will only know until that test. I wish you so much luck and baby dust - did you transfer just the one in the end? X

[YellowStar4 in reply to MultiMagpie]

Hey MultiMagpie thanks for reaching out again ♥️

Awh I feel the exact same! I really hope I get the biggest shock on Saturday - part of me is preparing myself for the worst to be safe. Today I felt some period like (gassy) cramps for some minutes and then back to nothing the boobs remain a constant sore which have done so for well over a week. Haven’t noticed much colouration change it’s mostly on and off so trying not to hold on to that symptom. I also tried testing my basal body temp but I read it could be the added progesterone which plays a part in upping my temp so I stopped that.

So happy for you to be in your 2nd trimester 🙏🏻 hah I cant wait to feel sickly and grumpy in bed 😂

I opted for transferring 2 ✨ at this point we’re so ready to take on twins (should it be the case). I asked doc about transferring best and mid ones like you suggested but he said either the 1 best or 2 best so transferred the 4AA and 3BB 🤞🏻

[Slm123-]

hey lovely, like you I was extremely negative during my 2ww and i was convinced it hadn’t worked. I’d recently had a chemical on my transfer before this one and I felt a few symptoms which made me convinced it had stuck so when I didn’t get those this time around I just thought the worst. The day I tested I literally ran to the toilet to pee and left it in there and ran back to bed ready to curl up in a ball and cry.. about 3 minutes later my partner came in and hugged me and whispered to me “it’s worked”. I was in so much shock and couldn’t believe it. I’m currently 7 weeks today but still haven’t had my viability scan yet (it’s on Thursday) and I’m still extremely nervous/anxious as of course getting a positive doesn’t necessarily mean a successful pregnancy. I still don’t have many pregnancy symptoms and I really thought I’d be feeling more pregnant by now so that’s worrying me too 😞.

I know the waiting is painfully hard but try and do some of the things you enjoy. I found going for walks with a friend helped or listening to a podcast. I chose to continue working as it helped keep my mind distracted for some of the time and I don’t have a physical job but lots of people have some time off too.

Just wanted to wish you good luck and take care xx

[YellowStar4 in reply to Slm123-]

Heyy awhh that’s so exciting for you I’m sure your scan this week will go well but it’s completely understandable to feel nervous until hearing the heartbeat - wishing you all the positivity. What I found helpful is the different stories from women that all feel something at different times so theres no hard rule that symptoms should be felt by certain milestones especially in the early weeks.

I’m wfh for the next 3 days so it’s gonna be torture at home alone over analysing again on my own whilst my partners at work. It’s the most tiring journey of all xxx

[Kitkat10]

yes, I had given up all hope and even booked a review consultation with a different doctor before I tested because I was so sure my third transfer was a fail. I had no symptoms and didn’t feel like I even had the energy to care anymore, but…. It all changed in an instant and it worked. When I felt at my absolute lowest, the process worked 🩷 stay positive, it can definitely work and there is no rhyme or reason to symptoms in the 2 ww. Good luck 💚💚💚💚

[YellowStar4 in reply to Kitkat10]

Awhh that’s so lovely and hopeful to hear so happy for you 🫶🏻🫶🏻 i’m getting waves of hope and positivity and hanging on to these last few days 💖