I feel like I'm on the verge of having a nervous breakdown. We are due to embark on donor sperm IVF overseas at Christmas which I am excited about but also extremely full of worry and anxiety. This really is our last chance and it's stressing me thinking about the what ifs.
Now work is beyond stressful to top it all off. I'm snowed under beyond belief and I have so many people dependant on me. I end up sacrificing my happiness and health to help others. I have so much work to do I'm working nearly 15 hours daily and I'm working this weekend. I just want to calling sick but if I do the work will just be piling up waiting for my return. There is no way out!
Now I'm sat here not sure whether I want to cry, scream at the top of my lungs or smash things.
All I want is to be overseas focusing on creating a family and that's all I can think about. I'm literally counting the days!!
So sorry for the enormous rant, I just needed to somehow get out how I'm feeling. I'm sure next week will be a better week xxx