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Hi all

So I’ve been doing IVF for about 6 years and no luck as yet. I had a cycle with a fresh - bled before OTD, then a FET - failed to thaw. 2nd cycle used ICSI, got 5 embryos. 4 BFPs and 1 BFN. BFP’s ended at 5 weeks, 7 weeks, chemical and one that was just a pregnancy sac at viability scan. I’ve had ERA/EMMA/ALICE testing done and earlier this year I had a hydrosalpinx removed. Due to the latter, I’ve not had a transfer for nearly 2 years but have just done another full cycle. 24 eggs resulted in 14 embryos - had PGTA testing and was left with 6 top grade (all 10,9 or 8) genetically normally embryos. 10 days ago I had a grade 10, day 5 but already hatching embryo transferred. OTD is tomorrow!

Thank you so much if you have got this far!!

I had forgotten just how hard the ‘2ww’ is! The first half I seemed to sail through but now I’m questioning everything!! I’ve been getting some mild cramps, but mostly at night which is after my Lubion injection so could be that.

I’ve been getting some nausea while still being hungry and today I’m soooooo tired, like really really tired!

I’m so, so scared to test in the morning. Every test day in the past I’ve had a friend with me but no one actually knows the date I’m testing this time as I wanted to do it on my own. I hate myself for getting my hopes up that this nausea & tiredness could be a good sign and am already just dreading the heartbreak in the morning if it’s negative 💔

I told myself I’d stay off Google but the closer it’s got to OTD, the more I’m on it!

I’m not entirely sure what I want from posting this. I guess maybe just someone might understand this horrible feeling or maybe I’ll just feel better for getting it all out?!?

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Kitkat10

hi, I can definitely relate to how you feel about the 2ww. I found it horrible too. I’m sorry you’ve had such a tough time. I really really hope this cycle brings you success. It sounds like you have really good numbers and a really good result from the PGT testing. I didn’t ever have enough embryos to test, so you are doing really well. Just try and hang in there, everything crossed for tomorrow. You are not on your own xx 🍀🍀

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BananaLover13 in reply toKitkat10

Thank you. I literally came on to read these replies while waiting the 3 minutes for the test! I woke up at 3am with such bad cramps and then at 6am and had a bad belly, was convinced it was over. I have just tested though and it’s positive. But, it’s faint. It shouldn’t be faint…..this far along with a hatching embryo surely it should be a proper dark line! Not sure how to feel now - I’ve just done a digital one too so waiting on that one as I type xx

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Chowlady14 in reply toBananaLover13

OMG the hugest congratulations! I was reading your original post and about to send well wishes then saw this! So incredibly happy for you! Wishing you a happy and healthy pregnancy xxx

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BananaLover13 in reply toChowlady14

Thank you so much :-) do you not think a faint line means it’s not real though? :-/ xx

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Chowlady14 in reply toBananaLover13

I have seen your picture and I would be happy with that test! Enjoy being pregnant and nurture that bean to stay snug for the next 9months xxxx

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BananaLover13 in reply toChowlady14

Thanks so much for your lovely words. I still don’t think I can believe it’s real yet x x

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Belldandy

The 2WW is a dreadful period. I totally understand. You have great chances and I’m rooting for you! Please update us 🙏🏻.

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BananaLover13 in reply toBelldandy

Thank you :-) it’s been so hard! I just got a faint positive - I don’t feel great though as I’m worried how faint it is and at 11dp5dt I feel like I should be darker :-/ xx

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Kitkat10 in reply toBananaLover13

🩷🩷 still a positive test though, the darkness often doesn’t mean that much on some tests. My clinic OTD wasn’t until day 13. Will you have a beta blood too? Good news, I’m so pleased for you x

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BananaLover13 in reply toKitkat10

Thank you so much. My clinic doesn’t do bloods, will just be booked in for a scan in about 3 weeks. I’ve got one more normal (not digital) test so I’m planning on doing that one on Thursday and hopefully seeing a darker line :-/ xx

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Doodlebug23

I came to send you massive lots of good luck and baby dust. Still sending them but adding a congratulations too. Can you post a pic of your test?

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BananaLover13 in reply toDoodlebug23

Thank you :-) I don’t really know how to feel!!

Yep this is the test when I’d first done it…..I also then did a digital that said Pregnant but only 1-2 weeks :-/ xx

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Doodlebug23 in reply toBananaLover13

That’s a positive I reckon ☺️

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BananaLover13 in reply toDoodlebug23

Thank you :-) these are my tests now it’s daytime - think I’m just going to enjoy my little pregnancy bubble for now and keep everything crossed xx

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Doodlebug23 in reply toBananaLover13

I think testing a lot seems to cause more stress than anything. I only tested on test day - although I did a few brands to compare. I think you have the right idea! When it all goes ok you’ll regret not trying to enjoy every part x

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BananaLover13 in reply toDoodlebug23

Oh sorry I meant that the photo was taken in daylight but they’re still the tests from 6am! It was super hard but I managed to wait till OTD before testing.

I have one more test that I’m going to do in a couple of days but if it’s still positive, I’ll just wait for the scan which is on 19th! 😀

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DancingQu33n

Was just going to wish you luck when I saw your update! Fantastic news ❤️ I know people always say a line is a line but I was in your position last week and seeing other people’s dark lines sent me into a tailspin so can totally empathise. At 13dp5dt last week I had a clear line but it was still pretty faint. It did get darker over the next few days but not super dark and nowhere near the control line. I’ve had bloods done and my levels are consistent with a viable pregnancy so I’ve officially stepped away from the tests. Just wanted to say that a faint test is still a positive so hope you can try to enjoy having some hope. The nurse told me that hcg levels have such a huge range and can vary so much from woman to woman and even the same woman for different pregnancies. And then there’s different tests, different batches of the same tests, hydration levels (you can see I’ve driven myself nuts with this!)

Really hope this is the start of a new chapter for you ❤️ best of luck for the coming weeks and months!

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AdoptedTOWIE in reply toDancingQu33n

Congratulations all!! I am in the same position as you - I had a faint second line too and didn't somehow trust it even though I knew rationally it did mean positive... Only early days for me still and my clinic doesn't seem fussed about blood test, so I'm just going to try and enjoy this time for now and keep my fingers crossed.

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DancingQu33n in reply toAdoptedTOWIE

This is exactly how I felt, it just didn’t seem like a ‘real’ positive. I know, such early days but trying to enjoy it now too. Mine don’t do bloods as standard but offered to do them when I rang them in a total mess. The wait for those was anxiety inducing to but the results have helped me trust that it’s even possible now. (Had a mmc earlier in the year so trust in my body and tests was at an all time low). Here’s to hope! 🤞

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BananaLover13 in reply toDancingQu33n

Thanks both and many congratulations to you both!! Part of me doesn’t want to test again and just enjoy it but whether it gets darker or disappears completely- at least I’ll know 🤷🏼‍♀️ xx

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Kate-92

I think your test line looks great, mine were lighter at my OTD & I also got 1-2 wks on my digital. My little boy is sat in my arms just now - 4 weeks old x wishing you so much love & luck x

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BananaLover13 in reply toKate-92

Aww congratulations! Thank you so much for this :-)

I tested again this morning and although I think it’s a slightly better line, it’s not stronger so I’m still not feeling too positive :-/

These are the tests - top was 11days (OTD) and bottom today (13days)

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Kate-92 in reply toBananaLover13

I think that line from today does look stronger - these are mine from when I first had a positive. Yours are looking promising 🙏🏼🤞🏼 x

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BananaLover13 in reply toKate-92

I appreciate you sharing this picture so much - it is literally what’s kept me going this last week. I’ve tested again today, a full week past OTD and I seem to have a good line so I’m trying not to get my hopes up too much but feeling a little more positive :-) xx

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Kate-92 in reply toBananaLover13

That looks like a good line again 🙏🏼 But please try not to get too caught up on line strength, it is SO easy for me to say this having been exactly the same but hindsight is a wonderful thing. I was so paranoid because I had, had a chemical pregnancy 3 months prior to our 1st IVF so of course it was on my mind consistently - I tested every day until I was 10 wks pregnant, and I’ll be honest the strength of the lines was all over the show. When is your first scan ? x

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Salimali44

just read your post and all the comments- sending so much hope and luck to you that your positive hangs on! I am in the second week of my 2 week wait now and also having terrible cramps that feel very much like a period. Hard not to think the worst…. I also made a pact not to google things/ go online but I have cracked! It’s just the hardest rollercoaster in the world and I don’t think anyone who hasn’t done it can ever understand. Take care of yourself and all the best to you

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BananaLover13 in reply toSalimali44

Thank you and yep, I totally get it. I said I wasn’t going near Google etc but the closer it got to test day, the more I was online!!

And you’re absolutely right - others try to understand but you have to have done this to really know.

Wishing you the best of luck! :-) x

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BananaLover13

Thank you all so much for your comments and support last week - you all really helped me so so much! I’ve tested again today and seem to have a much better line so I’m trying to stay realistic and not get too hopefully but I am trying to think as positive as possible xx

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