Absolutely heartbroken 💔

[Babyluck95]

Hi ladies, as the post says really my heart is shattered! A little bit more about my story, we had our first ever round of icsi and managed to get 2 good quality eggs which were then frozen, fast forward to 1 month later I had my egg transfer on the 20th of March and got told to take a test on the 2nd of April which to our surprise was positive at 7dpt, we was so delighted as I know we were one of the lucky ones at the time that it took straight away, again fast forward to 6 weeks +3days pregnant I start to spot and its brown so I go to the hospital and they tell me they could only see the gestational sac and yolk sac and that I was only around 5 and a bit weeks pregnant so I knew it wasn't right as of course ivf date are very accurate, anyway had my first ultrasound scan at the fertility clinic last week when I should of been 7 weeks 3 days pregnant, we saw a lovely strong heartbeat but was measuring small for dates 6 weeks +2days to be precise, so she booked me another one for the 30th which is tomorrow, I've gone back to the hospital today as they booked me another scan for 10 days time and they've measured me at 6 weeks +3days again But still a strong heartbeat, I really can't cope with my feelings at the moment because one thing is telling me don't give up there's still a heartbeat and the other is saying it's not grown for a whole week so honestly I guess I'm just wanting to express my feelings as you ladies are the only ones that can truly understand this cruel world of ivf! Also should I prepare for the worse? Could the hospital be wrong and they did an abdominal scan this time where the rest have been tranvaginal scans, sorry for long post 😔😪

[Babyluck95]

Also I forgot to mention I'm still spotting brown stuff for 2 weeks 1 day now, sometimes it's a little bit other days there's none and then other days again it's quite a bit 😔

[Gerbear22]

Hi there.So sorry you are going through this.I was in the exact same predicament a few weeks ago and it did not work out for me.Its a nightmare waiting for each scan so my heart goes out to you.My story is that I measured 6wks 1 day when I should of been 7wks 3 days.Although this was a natural pregnancy I knew when we last had sex so dates couldn't have been that far out.Told there was a strong healthy heartbeat and not to worry.Viable pregnancy.Scan week later with consultant showed baby hadn't grown but still had strong heartbeat and told couldnt compare dates due to first scan being ultra sound and second transvaginal.Told viable due go heartbeat but i knew it wasnt going to work out with baby not growing.Scan a week later at 9wks 3 days showed baby hadn't grown again but had a weak heartbeat this time and scan at 9wks 5days showed that the heart had finally stopped.I hope your story is different and wishing you all the best.xx

[Babyluck95 in reply to Gerbear22]

Oh no I'm so sorry that it has Happened to you too! 😢 it just feels so cruel to be given the thing you want the most and then all of a sudden its ripped away, the pain is unimaginable, I feel guilty and also angry at my body because I hope I don't sound horrible but if it is going to happen I want it done now as I'm going on holiday on the 8th so I want to be able to drown my sorrows and plus I'm really scared it will happen then and don't know what Europe's hospitals are like with care, feel angry I'm even having to think about this when it should of been a happy time, can I ask how you coped and how are you dealing with it because i feel like curling up in a ball and dying x

[Christianbaby]

I am sorry you are experiencing this. It can be really tough. Wait for the next scan to see if the situation has improved, but also, as you said, prepare for the turn for the worse. Sending good vibes and hope things get better. x

[Babyluck95]

Just a little update I went for my scan today at fertility clinic and the hospital were wrong! I'm 7.3weeks so it has grown from 5.9mm to 11.7mm in a week! But I am still a week behind so she has discharged us from the clinic today because she said we've had 2 scans and both have been viable pregnancies but did warn us it could still go either way, there is still a strong perfectly normal heartbeat still as well, so we've gotta go through midwife now and be referred to the hospital so they can keep a close eye on us! Honestly don't know how to feel but I guess it's better than what we thought yesterday as I honestly thought it hadn't grown! Xx

[Gerbear22 in reply to Babyluck95]

Wonderful news!!Delighted to hear this update.x

[Megrumpy]

Hi,

I am glad that it is all looking good. I dont have any experinece with early pregnancy, BUT I had twin preganancy following IVF and because one twin was samller than the other we had scans every 2 weeks. And by the end of it, we literally decided that a lot depends on the sonographer. We went from short legs and big heads to long legs and tiny tummies depending on the week and who was doing the scanning.

[Babyluck95]

Awe I would of loved twins but I think 1 is giving me enough of a hard time 😂 do you mind me asking how far behind you was with the smaller one? Does sound like a marathon but honestly anything would be worth it if I get my little bean in my arms at the end of it xx

[Simo2]

Hi Babyluck,

I have a similar story. My 7+2 week scan, baby measured at 6+3 - good heartbeat but enlarged yolk sac. I came away a mess, convinced my baby wasn't going to make it.

Following day had severe cramping and some bleeding so went to A&E late at night and was scanned the following morning - baby still there but hadn't grown.

Fast forward a week from first scan and baby had nearly doubled in size but was still measuring approx 6 days behind my IVF dates but they discharged me nonetheless.

I'm now 23+2 with my healthy little boy who's growth has caught up perfectly. Every day is a worry, so that anxiety never leaves but it does get easier to cope with after the big milestone scans.

Hoping your little one catches up soon!! xxx

[Babyluck95 in reply to Simo2]

Simo2

Awe my gosh thank you so much for the Good feeling story I'm so happy it is working out for you ❣️ It also sounds like you've been through the ringer, I hope my story is as positive as yours, I really feel guilty though because I feel with the news we got and being discharged we should be happy, well OH is but I think I've read up to many negative stories where people have lost there baba even at 10 or 11 weeks! But like you said it will be an anxious time I guess for everyone really! Good luck in the rest of your pregnancy, thank you for replying xx